Choosing when to go

[betternever2havbeen]

Seems like such a gift. To know exactly when you are going to die (well hopefully) and getting your affairs in order, tying up lose ends, telling your family goodbye (not so they suspect anything but maybe just be extra nice-although my mum would suspect something then for sure haha) leaving a note. It's something so few people get to do. Then knowing exactly how it's going to go-picking a method you are most comfortable with, knowing what to expect (more so than any other death anyway). Not having to think "am I going to die of cancer or lose my mind with dementia" etc. to know and be ready for it. I know it'll still be super hard but a natural death to me is so much harder.

 

[eve2004]

I don't think I can mentally eek out nearly as many years as I am physically capable of... I am so detached from everyone, I have no one to say goodbye to, except maybe my psychiatrist but he'd suspect something for sure...! With most therapists on vacation around now... I dunno... I am going to be impulsive and have no one to stop me...

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I suppose the only downside is you are almost guaranteed to have to have an autopsy. Can't bear the thought of that but I know it's the law. I'm leaving a note, I've been telling my mother I wish I was dead for months if not years and I might even leave a video message saying "Hey I wasn't murdered by anyone! Except myself" but I know it won't be enough. This world is so sick even in death there is no peace

 

[eve2004]

I suppose the only downside is you are almost guaranteed to have to have an autopsy. Can't bear the thought of that but I know it's the law. I'm leaving a note, I've been telling my mother I wish I was dead for months if not years and I might even leave a video message saying "Hey I wasn't murdered by anyone! Except myself" but I know it won't be enough. This world is so sick even in death there is no peace

The best CTB method is to donate your organs. Not only do you get to decide when to go, who you save and who gets what... well you may not get to choose WHO but you know it will save someone who wants it more than you... They put you out before they remove your organs. No better way, IMO...

 

[keitaro]

yeah, having my dead body violated feels weird to think about, but at least i'll be dead.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

The best CTB method is to donate your organs. Not only do you get to decide when to go, who you save and who gets what... well you may not get to choose WHO but you know it will save someone who wants it more than you... They put you out before they remove your organs. No better way, IMO...

I couldn't do that, I've already took myself off the donor list (in the UK they now sign you up to it automatically and you actually have to "opt out") it's wonderful but not for me sorry. They put you on a machine and keep you alive longer to harvest the organs. I don't intend to be found alive for them to do anything with my organs and I wish to avoid being put on a machine at all costs! I also can't bear the thought of my organs working outside of my body it just freaks me out. I want to be completely gone. Fantastic for the people who want to donate but I expect to be as useless in death as in life sadly.

 

[eve2004]

I couldn't do that, I've already took myself off the donor list (in the UK they now sign you up to it automatically and you actually have to "opt out") it's wonderful but not for me sorry. They put you on a machine and keep you alive longer to harvest the organs. I don't intend to be found alive for them to do anything with my organs and I wish to avoid being put on a machine at all costs! I also can't bear the thought of my organs working outside of my body it just freaks me out. I want to be completely gone. Fantastic for the people who want to donate but I expect to be as useless in death as in life sadly.

What I meant was something that does not exist... In cases where medical assistance in dying is allowed, and an unaffected organ can be transplanted, instead of providing the assistance in dying and THEN getting the organs, basically, they would simply put you out and retrieve what they need.

What I would like to do is give up my body for science or to save a life or two, and have them take my organs NOW and not later. So it's like surgery, only they remove the organs and never put them back... Of course they don't and won't ever allow that, I'm just dreaming here. I don't care what happens after I'm dead.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

@eve2004 Oh I see what you mean yeh, good idea that I'm sure would work for a lot of people.

 

[FuneralCry]

I would much rather die from suicide than die from anything else. I would like to leave when the time is right for me rather than it be out of my control. Dying from an illness does sound so awful. I do envy those who have N, it must be such a relief for them knowing that they have a way to peacefully end all the suffering. I just wish that suicide is easier and for me the difficulty of suicide is what holds me back from attempting. Life is so horrifying and leaving as soon as possible would be the best thing for me.