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viennawaitsxx

viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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hi!! <3 this is my first post after reading multiple threads and guides here speaking both for and against opioids orally as a way to peacefully CTB. I have ordered 10g bromazolam, 50g medetomidine and 10g metonitazene, meaning strong benzos, sedatives and opioids. (the amounts are so large because chinese sellers didnt want to sell tiny amounts, which i do understand). my plan was to take some the benzos (bromazolam), then mix more than enough of the other two in wine and (hopefully) peacefully OD in that way. does anyone here have any experiences with chinese research chemicals, od'ing orally or any warnings, will the wine make it more likely for me to throw up etc? it would be awful to fail and end up with a brain injury or something of the sort :c thank u so much in advance, wishing u all so much peace, whatever phase youre in<3
 
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hi!! <3 this is my first post after reading multiple threads and guides here speaking both for and against opioids orally as a way to peacefully CTB. I have ordered 10g bromazolam, 50g medetomidine and 10g metonitazene, meaning strong benzos, sedatives and opioids. (the amounts are so large because chinese sellers didnt want to sell tiny amounts, which i do understand). my plan was to take some the benzos (bromazolam), then mix more than enough of the other two in wine and (hopefully) peacefully OD in that way. does anyone here have any experiences with chinese research chemicals, od'ing orally or any warnings, will the wine make it more likely for me to throw up etc? it would be awful to fail and end up with a brain injury or something of the sort :c thank u so much in advance, wishing u all so much peace, whatever phase youre in<3
Hi <3

I'm not going to speak on RCs, because it's precisely that. I would suggest you test them out in very small quantities (except the zine, that's just dangerous) to see the effect.

Depending on how you handle nausea in general I would strongly advise against taking them with alcohol. I personally am thinking about drinking a while before and allowing my stomach to process so my BAC gets some time to raise up a little. Depending on the drug it wouldn't be a bad idea to have some food in the stomach, but definitly not too much. Some opioids are lipophilic, which means they dissolve easy in fat - in which case a little fatty snack would help with the digestion and absorption of said opioids. Others, however, are not. With RCs there's no way to tell.

All in all; you are putting yourself at risk for brain injury. Sadly, there's no way to say for 100% you will succeed with such a method and how it will go down. This is exactly why the method is so strongly advised against. People have wildly different physical responses and tolerances to opioids, so there's no way for anybody to tell you what would happen and how it would come to pass. If you're willing to take this route, you must be willing to take the risk that comes with it.

For me personally, having experimented (and will continue to) with oral ROA in different dosages and combinations, nausea is not a primary concern for me. The only way I know is because I'm testing. But testing takes money and mental fortitude to not lose yourself in addiction and developing a habit and tolerance.
 
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viennawaitsxx

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Jul 19, 2026
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thank you so much for the reply! <3 i guess i will do slight testing beforehand, and limit any alcohol to some time prior taking the drugs, just to boost the effect. i also have some Z sleeping meds, so guess ill add everything possible to the mix and hope for the best, risks and all :,)
Hi <3

I'm not going to speak on RCs, because it's precisely that. I would suggest you test them out in very small quantities (except the zine, that's just dangerous) to see the effect.

Depending on how you handle nausea in general I would strongly advise against taking them with alcohol. I personally am thinking about drinking a while before and allowing my stomach to process so my BAC gets some time to raise up a little. Depending on the drug it wouldn't be a bad idea to have some food in the stomach, but definitly not too much. Some opioids are lipophilic, which means they dissolve easy in fat - in which case a little fatty snack would help with the digestion and absorption of said opioids. Others, however, are not. With RCs there's no way to tell.

All in all; you are putting yourself at risk for brain injury. Sadly, there's no way to say for 100% you will succeed with such a method and how it will go down. This is exactly why the method is so strongly advised against. People have wildly different physical responses and tolerances to opioids, so there's no way for anybody to tell you what would happen and how it would come to pass. If you're willing to take this route, you must be willing to take the risk that comes with it.

For me personally, having experimented (and will continue to) with oral ROA in different dosages and combinations, nausea is not a primary concern for me. The only way I know is because I'm testing. But testing takes money and mental fortitude to not lose yourself in addiction and developing a habit and tolerance
 
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holy shit ya managed to get a zene.

im living in th europe where zenes are hardly avaible.

little bit of jealous right there
 
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Jul 27, 2024
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hi!! <3 this is my first post after reading multiple threads and guides here speaking both for and against opioids orally as a way to peacefully CTB. I have ordered 10g bromazolam, 50g medetomidine and 10g metonitazene, meaning strong benzos, sedatives and opioids. (the amounts are so large because chinese sellers didnt want to sell tiny amounts, which i do understand). my plan was to take some the benzos (bromazolam), then mix more than enough of the other two in wine and (hopefully) peacefully OD in that way. does anyone here have any experiences with chinese research chemicals, od'ing orally or any warnings, will the wine make it more likely for me to throw up etc? it would be awful to fail and end up with a brain injury or something of the sort :c thank u so much in advance, wishing u all so much peace, whatever phase youre in<3
Jesus Christ 10g??? That must have cost you a lot of money. That's also enough to kill an entire city of people. If you take even a couple grams of that it would probably be impossible to save you and any vomiting wouldn't do anything. Maybe don't mix with wine though, put them into pill capsules. That shit probably tastes like batteries

Also I would like to add that you probably should not experiment with using them beforehand. You have enough to end your life a thousand times over. This stuff is so strong that getting the measurement wrong in the micrograms could make you OD but survive with brain damage. Don't touch it recreationally whatsoever.
 
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viennawaitsxx

Member
Jul 19, 2026
5
Jesus Christ 10g??? That must have cost you a lot of money. That's also enough to kill an entire city of people. If you take even a couple grams of that it would probably be impossible to save you and any vomiting wouldn't do anything. Maybe don't mix with wine though, put them into pill capsules. That shit probably tastes like batteries

Also I would like to add that you probably should not experiment with using them beforehand. You have enough to end your life a thousand times over. This stuff is so strong that getting the measurement wrong in the micrograms could make you OD but survive with brain damage. Don't touch it recreationally whatsoever.
close to 2k total i think. thank u so much for the advice!! <3 gotta find pill capsules somewhere, should be easier than what ive had to look for so far haha.
holy shit ya managed to get a zene.

im living in th europe where zenes are hardly avaible.

little bit of jealous right there
i live in europe too!!
 
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close to 2k total i think. thank u so much for the advice!! <3 gotta find pill capsules somewhere, should be easier than what ive had to look for so far haha.

i live in europe too!!
ordering from china seems to be the safest option
 

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