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lionetta12
Just a random person
- Aug 5, 2022
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Things are pretty unbearable and I'm tierd of being constantly hurt and broken by other people who enter, leave, enter, leave my life over and over because they can't make up their minds and they are abusive.
If SN didn't require all this planning, I would have chugged the 2 glasses now in a heart beat. I haven't eaten in 9 hours and nor have I consumed any water. But I'm not able to do it since I want to take the SN at 02 in the morning, it's now 03. I've also realised that I don't really want to do it in my apartment to avoid being found, so I have to wait to get a hotel and for next oppurtunity.
The only thing I've chewed in the past 9 hours is gum. When the time arises again, would it be fine to take SN after 8 hours fast despite having chewed some gum? And is there really no way to drink a little wine prior to the SN like just minutes prior or vodka? I don't want to risk failing but I feel like it would be easier to do if I could chew gum and enjoy some wine prior to give extra courage.
Sorry for a long post, I'm just very distressed and filled with a lot of pain right now, I don't really know what to do. Can't stop crying.
If SN didn't require all this planning, I would have chugged the 2 glasses now in a heart beat. I haven't eaten in 9 hours and nor have I consumed any water. But I'm not able to do it since I want to take the SN at 02 in the morning, it's now 03. I've also realised that I don't really want to do it in my apartment to avoid being found, so I have to wait to get a hotel and for next oppurtunity.
The only thing I've chewed in the past 9 hours is gum. When the time arises again, would it be fine to take SN after 8 hours fast despite having chewed some gum? And is there really no way to drink a little wine prior to the SN like just minutes prior or vodka? I don't want to risk failing but I feel like it would be easier to do if I could chew gum and enjoy some wine prior to give extra courage.
Sorry for a long post, I'm just very distressed and filled with a lot of pain right now, I don't really know what to do. Can't stop crying.