Cheated

[Ligottian]

Do you ever feel you were cheated or swindled out of a happy life? If only in a metaphorical sense?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Yes.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Also yes.

 

[LookingforAnswers]

Yesh

 

[Hirokami]

Yep, arguably from birth.

 

[VirtualSnow]

Not really.

 

[fillthevoid]

Sort of. But mainly I blame myself.

 

[Capsaicin78]

No, I really think I just got unlucky tbh. I think of my life as part of natural selection and I am on the wrong side of it. It's really a bit cruel to think about this but it won't matter after I ctb you know?

 

[jimmy7754]

I feel cheated, swindled and smacked around by life.

 

[Superdeterminist]

Definitely. I see it as an incontrovertible fact. I feel that the universe has conspired against me. But not just me, many others too, clearly. I believe in predetermination, so I believe that all of these misfortunes were just waiting to happen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like in my case, I could have never lived a happy life no matter what. It would be impossible for me. Nothing could ever make me want to live and I do not see how things could have been any different, being suicidal is who I am. I am simply not meant for this life.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I believe things have always been stacked against me. I, also, believe that I screwed up some, too. It would be like a 70/30 split, universe fault/my fault, I would surmise.

 

[rationaltake]

I definitely think I was dealt a bad hand. I should have folded straight away tbh.

 

[Laba]

I'm feeling betrayd of this whole world and government. I know there is more outside there and inside us humans. But in this life we are modern slaves and are just here to suffer.

 

[RubyGloom]

absolutely.

 

[September5th]

Yeah. But I'll admit that a lot of my problems are indeed consequences of shitty decisions. Those decisions were driven by an already unfair life, though.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

It was my fault, really.

 

[nosurpries]

the pandemic robbed me of a fullfilling teenage experience and it effects me everyday still. i think covid is what triggered me to go from passive ideation to active ideation.

 

[QuietEnd]

I feel I was given a set of cards I was never going to win with. No matter what I tried.

Like the lottery all the advertising makes it sound fantastic, make you want to keep trying each week, but the odds are so stacked against you it's never going to happen. And my odds are worse than a lot of many.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I'm not sure why I was the one to totally fuck everything up when everybody I know is relatively OK… But yes I treated myself and/or was cheated by circumstances… Mainly cheated by my own delusions…

 

[gcso]

Yes.

 

[barelys4ne]

Yeah. But I'll admit that a lot of my problems are indeed consequences of shitty decisions. Those decisions were driven by an already unfair life, though.

This is how I feel about my life rn and it's not a fun place to be. It all feels like I need momentum of an okayish or better life to get me to make better decisions consistently

 

[Sockeye Salmon]

Yes, and I feel like I'm always getting visions and daydreams of what it's like if my life isn't as a mess as it is now, or what it's like if my childhood wasn't as a mess as it was.

 

[nixdeath]

definitely. I was neglected and bullied as a kid which gave me issues I am still facing. If I lived in another situation I maybe could've had a happy life.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Definitely YES. Dysfunctional family with alcoholic father and narcissistic, cruel, almost sociopathic manipulative sibling, I'm socially awkward and have severe depression and anxiety disorder(s) going back to childhood, and to top it off...so many physical health problems that began in childhood and have progressed and increased in number as I've aged. I was cheated out of EVERYTHING - even basic human enjoyments like eating, sleeping normally, having friends and building a career, even sex due to a disease I have that made sex painful and miserable experience. and I've endured physical pain essentially every single day due to my stomach problms and the aforementioned disease that destroyed sex for me. I have grown SO BITTER about being cheated out of what I see/have seen my peers and family get to experience and do and accomplish while I sat on the sidelines, suffering and continuing to hope for relief and help and healing that never came. I don't understand why some people are blessed with so much in life while others suffer greatly and don't get to experience even 1/10th of what the 'blessed' get to (and I know there are people who have suffered FAR MORE than I, so I'm not only talking about my own situation here).

Anyway, ';tldr: yes, I feel cheated and that feeling has grown into anger and bitterness and hopelessness to the point where I don't even want to hear about the successes and joys of anybody. A juvenile reaction I know but: "IT ISN'T FAIR". I tried so hard in this life but nothing ever worked for me nor did I ever get better or find relief. I just want it all OVER.

I'm so sorry to you all out there who also have been cheated out of the happiness and fulfilling life you deserved. You deserved better.

 

[chronicallybroken]

Definitely YES. Dysfunctional family with alcoholic father and narcissistic, cruel, almost sociopathic manipulative sibling, I'm socially awkward and have severe depression and anxiety disorder(s) going back to childhood, and to top it off...so many physical health problems that began in childhood and have progressed and increased in number as I've aged. I was cheated out of EVERYTHING - even basic human enjoyments like eating, sleeping normally, having friends and building a career, even sex due to a disease I have that made sex painful and miserable experience. and I've endured physical pain essentially every single day due to my stomach problms and the aforementioned disease that destroyed sex for me. I have grown SO BITTER about being cheated out of what I see/have seen my peers and family get to experience and do and accomplish while I sat on the sidelines, suffering and continuing to hope for relief and help and healing that never came. I don't understand why some people are blessed with so much in life while others suffer greatly and don't get to experience even 1/10th of what the 'blessed' get to (and I know there are people who have suffered FAR MORE than I, so I'm not only talking about my own situation here).

Anyway, ';tldr: yes, I feel cheated and that feeling has grown into anger and bitterness and hopelessness to the point where I don't even want to hear about the successes and joys of anybody. A juvenile reaction I know but: "IT ISN'T FAIR". I tried so hard in this life but nothing ever worked for me nor did I ever get better or find relief. I just want it all OVER.

I'm so sorry to you all out there who also have been cheated out of the happiness and fulfilling life you deserved. You deserved better.

Some of this sounds very similar to my life… it sounds like you've had it a lot worse than me, but I can relate. I'm sorry that everything sucks so much