I'm feeling really stuck now in terms of methods. I decided that I wanted to settle on Sodium Nitrite as my method of CTB. My initial thought was choosing between the Night-Night method and Sodium Nitrite. I was also toying with the idea of the Kairos Kollar, but it's not out yet and I won't be eligible for it. However, after doing some digging about the Night-Night method, the risks involved, and its difficulty, I opted for Sodium Nitrite.
Well, as 'luck' would have it, this is where I hit a brick wall. Unfortunately, in my research I realized that you would need to take an anti-emetic to successfully CTB with Sodium Nitrite otherwise you would puke it out. If I was healthy this wouldn't be a problem, but I have post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) and if I take an anti-emetic there's a high chance that could exacerbate my PAWS symptoms or react negatively with my body in an unintended way. Moreover, on a different note, benzos are not an option either since of my condition.
Of course, I could raw dog the Sodium Nitrite but then again this doesn't seem like it would really work.
I guess, I'm back to square one and considering Night-Night now or other means. It's effed up but it's as if fate intended for me to work for my death in that I'll have to do it without any drugs involved and suffer in death. Kind of poetic though since it's literally a 'go through hell to get to heaven' situation.
Does anyone have any thoughts?
I just want to wrap it up this year, get some closure, and move on for whatever awaits in the next life. I know I'm not the only one on the site that feels this way and I sympathize with those that do. It's like making compromises after compromises.
Well, as 'luck' would have it, this is where I hit a brick wall. Unfortunately, in my research I realized that you would need to take an anti-emetic to successfully CTB with Sodium Nitrite otherwise you would puke it out. If I was healthy this wouldn't be a problem, but I have post-acute withdrawal syndrome (PAWS) and if I take an anti-emetic there's a high chance that could exacerbate my PAWS symptoms or react negatively with my body in an unintended way. Moreover, on a different note, benzos are not an option either since of my condition.
Of course, I could raw dog the Sodium Nitrite but then again this doesn't seem like it would really work.
I guess, I'm back to square one and considering Night-Night now or other means. It's effed up but it's as if fate intended for me to work for my death in that I'll have to do it without any drugs involved and suffer in death. Kind of poetic though since it's literally a 'go through hell to get to heaven' situation.
Does anyone have any thoughts?
I just want to wrap it up this year, get some closure, and move on for whatever awaits in the next life. I know I'm not the only one on the site that feels this way and I sympathize with those that do. It's like making compromises after compromises.
