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copioushopelessness

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Aug 27, 2025
386
Every moment is torture. I need out of this asap.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,391
I really understand, I just always find it so torturous to suffer in this terrible, dreadful existence, all I want is to be gone, I hope you find the freedom you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

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Jul 3, 2025
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Do you also feel like being trapped in a nightmare?
 
dragon.//

dragon.//

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Nov 5, 2025
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I understand, i also cant wait for this to be over
 
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copioushopelessness

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Aug 27, 2025
386
Do you also feel like being trapped in a nightmare?
Yes. I feel like this is living hell.
I used to escape in sleep but for over a year my dreams have been so bizarre. I don't fall into deep sleep anymore. I jerk awake constantly.
Being awake is a nightmare, sleep, nightmares, I can't escape.
 
Terrible_Life

Terrible_Life

Warlock
Jul 3, 2025
712
Yes. I feel like this is living hell.
I used to escape in sleep but for over a year my dreams have been so bizarre. I don't fall into deep sleep anymore. I jerk awake constantly.
Being awake is a nightmare, sleep, nightmares, I can't escape.
I feel like ctb is like a portal opening while I am suffering in a nightmare/hell and that portal will allow me to enter it and leave this hell nightmare pain sadness forever therefore I work hard for my exit portal to open soon .
 

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