Can't wait to live with my partner so we could kill ourselves

[hyuk✮i]

to make it simple, i am suicidal so is my partner, but i am also extremely fucked up in general and live in a poor country where talking about mental issues is seen as "occidental bullshit''
after my last attempt she asked me to not kill myself until we meet and live together, live for a year and if after all this time i don't get better we will kill ourselves
i love my partner so much, i really really do but i know deep down that in this rotten world, she would greatly suffer as she would be the one to take care of me and herself and due to my mental issues i would be incapable to help her. so now i'm trying my genuine best to wait until that time arrives so we would be free from all our suffering and pain we have
it's hard, it's really hard. every single day i want to die even if i end up giving up cause i don't want her to be alone because of my cowardice
it's so silly really

 

[25dRvS9Ka]

I think that if I found the ideal partner I would want to live a little longer, like... About ninety years, it's not much but it's enough for me to shower her with affection and kisses on her lips...

 

[hyuk✮i]

I think that if I found the ideal partner I would want to live a little longer, like... About ninety years, it's not much but it's enough for me to shower her with affection and kisses on her lips...

me too, but humanity is so evil it just too much for me. in a perfect world we would have be cats chilling on the grass, alas it's not the case
i wish you good luck for finding a partner that will really love and care about you, it's a wonderful thing