Ava
Member
- Oct 25, 2021
- 18
-
⚠️ UK Access Block Notice: Beginning July 1, 2025, this site will no longer be accessible from the United Kingdom. This is a voluntary decision made by the site's administrators. We were not forced or ordered to implement this block. If you're located in the UK, we recommend using a VPN to maintain access.
BluesRunTheGame
Blackpilled
- Dec 15, 2020
- 1,715
Yeah I've been waking up to anxiety for a while now. Heart pounding like a machine gun. Can't take it for much longer.
jimmy7754
I just want to be myself again
- Dec 15, 2021
- 508
Everyday is terrible for me
September5th
You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
- May 17, 2022
- 244
Every morning is hell, indeed. I miss the time I would wake up happy, energetic, excited. Now it's just anxiety and depression all around.
Passersby
Trapped in space and time
- Aug 29, 2019
- 1,644
Waking up is the worst thing. The nightmare repeats itself every day, month, and year only to keep going and get worse. I wish dying was easier.
Painless_end
Life is too difficult for me
- Oct 11, 2019
- 794
Yes I know how you all feel.
Sadly it isn't any different for me.
Unless I can finally end my life, the living nightmare will continue like some kind of punishment for God knows what
I mean, assuming for a moment that reincarnation of the soul is real, it makes me think
Was I some kind of bad person in my past life ? Did I hurt others ? Did I cause suffering ?
Why do I endlessly suffer now ?
Sadly it isn't any different for me.
Unless I can finally end my life, the living nightmare will continue like some kind of punishment for God knows what
I mean, assuming for a moment that reincarnation of the soul is real, it makes me think
Was I some kind of bad person in my past life ? Did I hurt others ? Did I cause suffering ?
Why do I endlessly suffer now ?
Absolutely the same. Not long left to wait, thankfully.
Alcohol, which has kept me alive for years, is no longer enough. It's 06:20 here and I'm about to drink my ninth beer if the night. When supermarket opens at 08:00, I'll go buy some more. Then I'll sleep and wake up and start drinking straight away, then drink more in the pub before starting my night shift. Then after work I'll drink more. You get the idea: I spend practically every waking minute under the influence, just to stay alive. Enough. Enough of this insufferable farce.
Alcohol, which has kept me alive for years, is no longer enough. It's 06:20 here and I'm about to drink my ninth beer if the night. When supermarket opens at 08:00, I'll go buy some more. Then I'll sleep and wake up and start drinking straight away, then drink more in the pub before starting my night shift. Then after work I'll drink more. You get the idea: I spend practically every waking minute under the influence, just to stay alive. Enough. Enough of this insufferable farce.
jimmy7754
I just want to be myself again
- Dec 15, 2021
- 508
You weren't .. but that's my opinion.. we are spinning on a rock and slowly losing our lives as the earth is trying to get rid of us.. but that's my opinion again.. it's all about perspective?!
Lost Magic
Illuminated
- May 5, 2020
- 3,203
Yeah, I get this all the time. Every time I wake up, I think to myself why do I need to go through the torture of living again. I had to take the bins in today and because I have been feeling on edge lately, it took a lot of effort. So I took a propranolol and blasted some music in my earphones to get out there to do this (what should be) simple task. Can't wait for all this life crap to be over with.
LookingforAnswers
Student
- Mar 15, 2022
- 113
Everyday is a nightmare for me. I long for last year back but will never get if. None of my life will be the same
Reincarnation , they very thought make me even more depressed, dont we have any fucking free will , i feel like i am a slave , life is hell already, even if god sends me to heaven i would still feel depressed, like why am i here .
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,160
Yeah its so pathetic , what you said was true , we are doomed , god doesn't show himself , i feel like he doesn't care about anyone, like gravity is fucking pulling us everyday and we cant do anything about it .
jimmy7754
I just want to be myself again
- Dec 15, 2021
- 508
Yea I am pretty big atheist.. I died once my dreams died when I was a teenager.. this is just a prolonged hellish experience at this point..
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,418
I understand how you feel. I am tired of waking up, it is so horrifying to realise that I am still here and that I did not die in my sleep. I long to peacefully pass away and never have to think or feel ever again. To me, existing is so pointless and I wish that it was easier to leave more than anything.
Shu
As above, So Below.
- Jan 21, 2022
- 2,487
September5th
You can get better. But the choice is always ours.
- May 17, 2022
- 244
Just woke up. Didn't have classes today, so I slept a lot. Fuck. Just dreamed I was back at January (an awesome month overall). Now I woke up back to this misery. What did I do to deserve this? Well, some stuff. But it's definitely unfair. Just wanted to die so badly.
sadgirl9999
ready to go ♡
- Jan 27, 2019
- 65
i genuinely want to cry the second i wake up. sometimes i do, sometimes the feeling just persists all day where i want to cry but can't. idk. i'm sorry you're going through this
