Can't take much more

[realname]

Hey everyone,

I don't know where else to go I haven't been on the site in a while...shit is bleak..

All I do is work meaningless jobs & get treated like a customer service doormat

I mean I get how some people find joy in the little things I just feel so pointless the little joys are so few and far between I wanna quit. i don't care about them.

I feel so alone which I know only exacerbates the issue.

I fantasize about jumping off a bridge constantly. . who knows it might be worse on the other side but i hope at least we won't be paid pennies for minutes there. I'm So Over It.
Even if I land wrong and dont die, maybe i shatter all my bones & can actually get disability approved then bc rn it seems impossible . there's so many ppl in need who don't get approved & the number of able bodied people is dwindling.
Impending doom.
I know there are other options but im too tired to find them& everyone keeps leaving me it feels like I have no one.

& No energy to keep going

 

[day]

I understand your feelings and I'm so sorry to hear you're suffering. I hope you manage to find peace moving forward OP..

Existence is so futile..

 

[maxatcu]

I an sorry to hear that, hope things improve in the future.

 

[Aisley]

Hey everyone,

I don't know where else to go I haven't been on the site in a while...shit is bleak..

All I do is work meaningless jobs & get treated like a customer service doormat

I mean I get how some people find joy in the little things I just feel so pointless the little joys are so few and far between I wanna quit. i don't care about them.

I feel so alone which I know only exacerbates the issue.

I fantasize about jumping off a bridge constantly. . who knows it might be worse on the other side but i hope at least we won't be paid pennies for minutes there. I'm So Over It.
Even if I land wrong and dont die, maybe i shatter all my bones & can actually get disability approved then bc rn it seems impossible . there's so many ppl in need who don't get approved & the number of able bodied people is dwindling.
Impending doom.
I know there are other options but im too tired to find them& everyone keeps leaving me it feels like I have no one.

& No energy to keep going

I ask if you want fries with that. Every day, the only goal is bedtime. At least I know it's an achievable one.

 

[mb0099]

I hear and feel your pain, I've lost everyone too, my last friend just made it clear twice this week he is done with me too even after promising he'll always stick by me. A good job with money doesn't ensure happiness, I've had one for several years but I know that is coming to an end- every day I'm lucky to still have it, yet I live in misery. Money solves but also creates many problems. I have no choice but to ctb over the next few weeks because of my abuser but going through the planning is exhaustive. Like you, I'm just too tired, but please try to be loving towards yourself, eff everyone else who try to put us down

 

[FuneralCry]

That really does sound so dreadful and tiring what you have to endure, to me it's certainly understandable wishing to finally be free from all the suffering that existing brings. But anyway best wishes.

 

[realname]

I ask if you want fries with that. Every day, the only goal is bedtime. At least I know it's an achievable one.

Summon the eternal sleep!!!

 

[ever so lonely]

same buddy i want my eternal nap too, i am tired of the mundane boring repetitive nightmare that existence entails, and to think none of us ever asked for it or signed up for this ish, relatable my friend, very relatable