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hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
516
Was gonna go with SN this week but my boyfriend is on a sick leave for two weeks. I could sneak out into the forest or do it during night time in our basement. But I'd honestly just prefer being home alone
 
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whatevs

whatevs

Mining for copium in the weirdest places.
Jan 15, 2022
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Have you talked about how you feel with him?
 
june

june

Experienced
May 25, 2020
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Yes i think he deserves to know otherwise it would cause extreme ptsd for him which isnt fair to him.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do. I'm sorry for all the suffering that has brought you to this point.
 
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jimmy7754

jimmy7754

I just want to be myself again
Dec 15, 2021
508
I wish I had the courage.. I could save myself a lot of pain.
 
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WadeingThru

WadeingThru

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Feb 25, 2022
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I would be worried the cops would make your boyfriend's life hell if you did it while he was in the house. At least in the US the police will use unlawful tactics to prove a case.
 
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katagiri83

katagiri83

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Jan 4, 2022
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Was gonna go with SN this week but my boyfriend is on a sick leave for two weeks. I could sneak out into the forest or do it during night time in our basement. But I'd honestly just prefer being home alone
@hopelessgirl , sorry to hear the agonies you've been going through… CTB is an absolute decision of our existence, maybe try not be too harsh on yourself, it's a sad departure from pain. Have you hinted to or deliberate it with him? Sorry if the question is too personal.
 
hopelessgirl

hopelessgirl

Mage
Oct 12, 2021
516
Have you talked about how you feel with him?
Yes he knows and he's been with me through the whole of this journey. He even knows I have SN. He's said he accepts my death. He knows how much I suffer.
@hopelessgirl , sorry to hear the agonies you've been going through… CTB is an absolute decision of our existence, maybe try not be too harsh on yourself, it's a sad departure from pain. Have you hinted to or deliberate it with him? Sorry if the question is too personal.
Yes he knows. He even knows I have SN. Thank you I will try not to be too hard on myself but it is difficult. I guess it just adds another two weeks to my life
I would be worried the cops would make your boyfriend's life hell if you did it while he was in the house. At least in the US the police will use unlawful tactics to prove a case.
You're right. It would also make it harder to go through with it I think. And there would also be the risk of him finding me too early.
Yes i think he deserves to know otherwise it would cause extreme ptsd for him which isnt fair to him.
He knows :-)
 
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WadeingThru

WadeingThru

Experienced
Feb 25, 2022
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he knows and he's been with me through the whole of this journey. He even knows I have SN. He's said he accepts my death. He knows how much I suffer.
He is a great guy for sticking by your side knowing that he is vesting his emotions in a relationship that might end tragically. I wish y'all the very best.
 
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