Help Can’t fail another suicide

[Ryan.s]

Guys this is literally my 11th time trying to kill myself via partial suspension (I'm improving and changing my approach every time) The problem is hanging hurts and that SI instinct always leaves me thinking there could be hope. Which is BS but hey that's the survival instinct.Wgat can I do (substance wise to make my self give absolutely no fucks?) I'm drinking a smaller amount of alcohol tonight because too much just makes me happy and fall asleep. So I'll take a little bottle of whisky to numb some of the pain, but would you guys suggest mixing (the two pills I have/ can be one or both) I have Klonopin (benzodiazepine , like Xanax) or should I take an ambien with the alcohol. I feel like I could mix substances and maybe get lucky and just kill myself. What do you guys think, and what experience, info could you give me?

Thank you

 

[BPD Barbie]

Sadly we can't really tell you what to do in these situations. I'm so sorry you've had so many attempts, I know what it's like to constantly fail, it feels like the worst thing in the world. You feel so hopeless. I hope you can figure out what works best, sadly SI is a hard thing to overcome and it's ingrained in us as humans. I wish you the best though, sending you my love

 

[LMLN]

I'm so sorry. Partial is very difficult, I have tried several times. If you feel that ctb is your only option than maybe partial is not for you. There is a resources section here to explore.
I am sorry you have come to this place of ctb...I understand. I hope you have explored all other options for recovery. ❤

 

[Swedish Equality]

What about full suspension?

 

[Ryan.s]

What about full suspension?

Where I live (Thailand) there is only 10 mm thick rope. I'm 240 pounds. I'm not going to risk that rope snapping.

 

[Ghost2211]

Have you considered another method? Perhaps partial just doesn't work for you.