Cant even cut myself anymore

[pleasexbexover]

Tried to relapse again. Cut myself deep in march for the first time in a whole and promised I wouldn't do if again
Had a terrible day reminding me why is hould hate myself and I tried but all I got were some measly scratches only one out of 5 drew blood and its not deep enough for shit
So not only can I not survive and achieve the basics I cant properly self harm anymore either. I fucking hate my life and would do anything to die right now

 

[thegogos]

I feel ya. The dulledness of what I use is infuriating and humiliating. Everything's already dead id wish my body would catch up w the msg. Sending wishes of times of ease to you