Can't cope with my job or coworkers and boss.

[Parnate]

My coworkers make such expressions and say such things related to my work , I know I maybe reading too much here or making negative assumptions.
But honestly I am a very sensitive person and also a people pleaser. So i always need validation from others. Also because of my adhd I am constantly making silly mistakes and ignoring things. I am inattentive in meetings.
My boss yells at me which makes me anxious leading to more mistakes . Also I keep forgetting things. And also i am sure my boss thinks lowly of me. Like I am not capable enough. I have avpd so all this is too much. I wish I could do a easier job but my family opposes that and I don't have the courage to stand up for myself.

 

[hamvil]

I identify with your situation 100%. No idea how to get out of it either, however my reason is that I am too old to change this. It really sucks.

 

[Parnate]

I identify with your situation 100%. No idea how to get out of it either, however my reason is that I am too old to change this. It really sucks.

How old r u? You also have adhd and avpd??

 

[madebrief]

Sounds like me too @Parnate just so low we can't stand up for ourselves. Life's all pointless anyway.

 

[hamvil]

How old r u? You also have adhd and avpd??

Do not know what avpd is. I am 43, I make mistakes because I am depressed and cannot really concentrate. Same reason for the bad memory. I am mobbed all day by colleagues and boss. It sucks. I would love to have a simple job but I really cannot do anything.

 

[Parnate]

Do not know what avpd is. I am 43, I make mistakes because I am depressed and cannot really concentrate. Same reason for the bad memory. I am mobbed all day by colleagues and boss. It sucks. I would love to have a simple job but I really cannot do anything.

Avpd is avoidant personality disorder. Did you try atomoxetine, it is a medication for concentration I am going to try that.. Why can't have a simple job, what stops you from having one?

 

[almaranthine]

The good news is... you still have the job. I have literally gotten jobs, and just laid in bed unable to get up, call, do anything to make an excuse for not going, blowing off all responsibility and feeling nothing. Sadly, I don't even feel guilty for doing that. The fact that you have the courage to get up, get ready, and go into work *is something* so don't forget that! I'm sorry it has been so difficult but dealing with people in any scenario usually is... best of luck to you. However, if it's mainly the job itself and the people contributing to your desire to end your life I strongly suggest trying to find some other means of employment.

 

[hamvil]

Avpd is avoidant personality disorder. Did you try atomoxetine, it is a medication for concentration I am going to try that.. Why can't have a simple job, what stops you from having one?

I just know how to do my current job (teacher) I do not know how to do anything else.

 

[ojinzo]

The good news is... you still have the job. I have literally gotten jobs, and just laid in bed unable to get up, call, do anything to make an excuse for not going, blowing off all responsibility and feeling nothing. Sadly, I don't even feel guilty for doing that. The fact that you have the courage to get up, get ready, and go into work *is something* so don't forget that! I'm sorry it has been so difficult but dealing with people in any scenario usually is... best of luck to you. However, if it's mainly the job itself and the people contributing to your desire to end your life I strongly suggest trying to find some other means of employment.

I loved this reply

 

[hamvil]

The good news is... you still have the job. I have literally gotten jobs, and just laid in bed unable to get up, call, do anything to make an excuse for not going, blowing off all responsibility and feeling nothing. Sadly, I don't even feel guilty for doing that. The fact that you have the courage to get up, get ready, and go into work *is something* so don't forget that! I'm sorry it has been so difficult but dealing with people in any scenario usually is... best of luck to you. However, if it's mainly the job itself and the people contributing to your desire to end your life I strongly suggest trying to find some other means of employment.

It is I had a much better job that a loved. I had a good position too. After I lost I got this sad teaching job and I know I will not be anymore what I was before. I am in depression since two years for this. I have no friends no social life no love life. All was in my old job. That is why I want to end my life.

 

[almaranthine]

It is I had a much better job that a loved. I had a good position too. After I lost I got this sad teaching job and I know I will not be anymore what I was before. I am in depression since two years for this. I have no friends no social life no love life. All was in my old job. That is why I want to end my life.

My best employment was at a health food/grocery store. I worked in the expansive supplement/vitamin department as an advisor. It was the only job I ever felt like I actually helped people and mattered in some way. I ended up ruining that for myself because I had a huge crush on my immediate supervisor. I don't know if I'll ever stop regretting leaving that position. It was beautiful when I'd see customers come back in, telling me how much my suggestions helped them. I've tried to get another job like it for years with no success. I feel your pain. The regret is visceral.

 

[Parnate]

The good news is... you still have the job. I have literally gotten jobs, and just laid in bed unable to get up, call, do anything to make an excuse for not going, blowing off all responsibility and feeling nothing. Sadly, I don't even feel guilty for doing that. The fact that you have the courage to get up, get ready, and go into work *is something* so don't forget that! I'm sorry it has been so difficult but dealing with people in any scenario usually is... best of luck to you. However, if it's mainly the job itself and the people contributing to your desire to end your life I strongly suggest trying to find some other means of employment.

I am planning to run away if and when it gets too much. I have some savings so I will survive few days. I assume this will make my family realise how bad my situation is and the I will be able to do a less stressful job

It is I had a much better job that a loved. I had a good position too. After I lost I got this sad teaching job and I know I will not be anymore what I was before. I am in depression since two years for this. I have no friends no social life no love life. All was in my old job. That is why I want to end my life.

I am so sorry for you. I hope it gets better

 

[GlassAlwaysEmpty]

I was at a job I knew from day one wasn't for me, but I still wasted almost 8 years of my life there. I didn't have the courage to leave or the motivation look for something else.

I know it's hard make a change, but if you're not careful a few more years will come and go and you'll still be stuck at a job you hate