Cant cbt because of my religion

[cantdoitcuzimmuslim]

Hello, this is my first post here.
So as you can tell from the title, the reason that i am still breathing today is because suicide is prohibited in my religion (Islam).
I cant do it because suicide is a major sin and directly goes to hell. At least that is what i believe. I really want to just cbt and be in peace, but ofcourse i could be in peace now but not in the after life. I really wish it wasn't this bad. If i would ever cbt, it would be hanging. But i will never cbt, because i cant, i cant go to hell. What i find unfair is that i have to live this hell so i can not go to the other hell prepared, and if i fail so then i will get an even worst punishment.
I am probably sinning just by thinking of this idea or writing it down here for you guys, but i dont know anymore, i give up but i cant give up until i finally die by gods will. I hope things can get better.

 

[KatzeK4]

Oh boy. If you are so religious then think of it like Allah is testing you. Even if you pass the test now, you can fail it later on. You tried, and may Allah grand you peace for trying so hard. If you are suffering and are in constant pain that you want to CTB, you should pray one last time and ask him for forgiveness, may your soul find the peace you are looking for. I wish you all the best, inshallah may things change and it will be better soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only hell that exists is the one that we already live in. I could never believe in fictional stories but it must be awful having to deal with that fear.

 

[cantdoitcuzimmuslim]

Oh boy. If you are so religious then think of it like Allah is testing you. Even if you pass the test now, you can fail it later on. You tried, and may Allah grand you peace for trying so hard. If you are suffering and are in constant pain that you want to CTB, you should pray one last time and ask him for forgiveness, may your soul find the peace you are looking for. I wish you all the best, inshallah may things change and it will be better soon.

I wish i could, but the fear is too much, i cant do anything, i did attempt multiple times but never did it. Thank you for your wishes, God bless.

The only hell that exists is the one that we already live in. I could never believe in fictional stories but it must be awful having to deal with that fear.

Good for you, you must be a little relaxed not having to deal with this fear. It really is awful, I cant do anything about it.

 

[Wowser]

Allah or any god isn't real. You just got brainwashed by your parents during your childhood. It's like a cult. I hope you wake up one day.

 

[Sparr0w]

Allah or any god isn't real. You just got brainwashed by your parents during your childhood. It's like a cult. I hope you wake up one day.

said this in another "my religion says suicide is a sin" thread and i'll say it again: it's not like there's an atheist hell op's going to for not being atheist, we don't need to be johavahs witnessess and go around trying to convert people.

i don't think OPs gonna change religion cause u said u think its a cult, and you don't think that either. you're just being rude for the sake of being rude. i agree that childhood indoctrination is bad and so on, but this isn't a "change my mind" thread. OP didn't ask for people to try and convert them. there's no reason to get into a dumb arguement here, and no reason to make OP feel like shit.