Cant bring myself to write personal suicide notes

[Ariii]

What I have written down right now is basically just saying it was a suicide and to not keep me alive if brain damaged. It's all very robotic and emotionless.

I physically cant write down anything thats more personal than that, not even to my mother. I just dont really have anything to say, but saying nothing and leaving everything so impersonal is probably worse.

I owe a lot to people and most people I know have been so kind to me, but I cant even bring myself to say I love you because it just feels wrong.

I dont know how you guys write such beautiful suicide notes.

 

[eggsausagerice]

i've written longer ones in my drafts and i just delete it all. i know i'll look like a jerk if i just say that my death was a suicide and that's the only way my friends will actually be informed by it. i just don't want to write something longer because i don't think that i want to be emotional. i hate the way a long suicide note looks because i feel lik what i say doesn't matter at all.

 

[Ariii]

i've written longer ones in my drafts and i just delete it all. i know i'll look like a jerk if i just say that my death was a suicide and that's the only way my friends will actually be informed by it. i just don't want to write something longer because i don't think that i want to be emotional. i hate the way a long suicide note looks because i feel lik what i say doesn't matter at all.

Right, I feel like I at least need to have an explanation, partially so they aren't stuck on why, and partially so they dont go through my shit. But I don't even have one I can explain properly. It's just a, I've never valued living that much and life became too much work.

Also, I don't think you should worry about a long suicide note making what u say not matter. If you ctb, people are going to care and read whatever you write imo, and certain people are going to dissect it and wish they had more.

 

[Matchaaa]

I had written a very long suicide note before, but some parts were quite disorganized. I even sent that draft to two family members, so I'm a little regretful. I deleted that entire draft later. But when I tried to start over, I kept it very brief. As for my old friends, I'm afraid my final words might become a burden to them, so I plan to leave only a few short lines—though I'll likely choose not to write anything at all. As for my family, I might write something, partly to spare them any pain, and perhaps share a few of my own feelings. Whether they'll take the time to read it is entirely up to them.

 

[Kamaainakupua]

I started a thread to help with notes, or to provide staple ones if they couldn't find the words themselves, but my samples are definitely along the lines of ʼmove on' rather than 'here's why'. I don't think most peple around us will, or even can, understand and appreciate our motivations. Funeral homes frequently offer advice to grieving family on eulogies, but SaSu is one of the only places to get help saying goodbye.

 

[wannabeangel]

i tried to start writing one, first an overall letter then separate ones for parents, siblings, close friends, ex husband... couldn't even finish the overall letter, i cant wrap my head around words to say. my opening letter was way too long, i ramble a lot. thinking i might try to short form it at this point