can’t afford to live can’t afford to die

[eeriepuff]

i genuinely despise my parents for bringing me into this world knowing they are poor. my preference to die would be with a gun but unfortunately i can't even afford that. the cost of living is sky high so I'm expected to keep living although i can't afford to live & then can't afford to die either. WTF. At this point I'm deluding myself into believing maybe one day I'll get lucky & win money or I'll have to accept my death will be extremely grizzly and not as clean cut as I'd been hoping.
I'm trying so hard not to start cutting myself again. I just want money. That is all I want.
Lmao my night is going so rough. It's taking everything in me really not to slash my wrist. I would pray to get money but idek if god is real

 

[AngelTear]

Real I'm in the same boat as you. I had to change my preferred method because I originally wanted a gun too but no money to afford one.

 

[Quietist]

I just want money. That is all I want.

Fucking same. The tragedy of life is that a lot of people are actually ambitious but inhibited and limited by lack of financial resources.

So then we enter the trap of survival mode, coping with dead-end jobs to pay bills or end up being hikikomori well into our adulthood, living with ageing parents as an alternative to homelessness.

 

[eeriepuff]

Real I'm in the same boat as you. I had to change my preferred method because I originally wanted a gun too but no money to afford one.

I'm so sorry that you're going through this. SN as a method for me is too risky as I hate throwing up + I've seen threads of people surviving which is like the worst case scenario imo. A gun would be so simple. I've been around one before so maybe I'll be able to get my hands on another one in the future

Fucking same. The tragedy of life is that a lot of people are actually ambitious but inhibited and limited by lack of financial resources.

So then we enter the trap of survival mode, coping with dead-end jobs to pay bills or end up being hikikomori well into our adulthood, living with ageing parents as an alternative to homelessness.

A job to me is like a fancy word for slavery. I just hate work more than anything. And I agree with everything you said 100%. Being ambitious but having 0 resources is hell on earth.

 

[ikiruNObungaku]

I feel this. I think a gun would be suitable to go, but at the same time I am worried about owning one. So I want to go via Nem. but it is risky to purchase online, isn't it?

I dislike it when people say money does not make people happy, because it would make people like us so much more happy. I want to afford good food, school, and doctor appointments, but I cannot for any.

 

[eeriepuff]

I feel this. I think a gun would be suitable to go, but at the same time I am worried about owning one. So I want to go via Nem. but it is risky to purchase online, isn't it?

I dislike it when people say money does not make people happy, because it would make people like us so much more happy. I want to afford good food, school, and doctor appointments, but I cannot for any.

Fuck I hate normies. Can't even look up nem without getting redirected to a fucking suicide hotline lol.

 

[eeriepuff]

N is completely out of reach. Unless you live in some South American countries or can travel there and somehow find it.
I'm afraid to say, I've been poor, I have money now. Problems in my head are still here and I still struggle and want to ctb. And any available method has risks and/or involves some kind of pain or another.

I don't even have insurance at the moment. Please speak for yourself.

I don't even have insurance at the moment. Please speak for yourself.

LMAO imagine reading me & so many others complaining about most of our issues that are making us want to ctb come from a lack of money & you say something so tone deaf & rude :/

 

[volo]

I don't even have insurance at the moment. Please speak for yourself.

I'm so so sorry. You are right…. I hope your suffering subsides as much as possible as soon as possible. I apologize again. I wish I could say something to make it better.