Can you name a reason(s) why life is truly worth living?

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

I'm new to this site (first post ever) and I've contemplated suicide lots in the past (including a couple half-assed attempts) and still continue to.

My mom passed away recently, it was expected, she was pretty sick and it was time for her. I'm sad but, tbh, I never had a really great relationship with her too.

I always had guilt about committing suicide while my parents were still alive but now with my mom gone (and I'm sure my dad will die of a broken heart too in the not-too-distant future), I've def now started to think about it again.

There's one question I always singled back to when it came to giving up and CTB: What reason(s) do you have to continue to stay alive?

Honestly, I've done it all in my life. I had a good childhood, got educated, made love to beautiful women (beautiful on the outside and inside), travelled and just experienced life in so many forms. I've been up in life and I've been down, both have taught me a lot about myself and the world. I'm just tired now at this point, there's nothing really left for me to do and I'm not only bored but just plain exhausted from watching the world burn itself down literally and figuratively.

Honestly, I have nothing to live for at this point, I really don't. If I posed this question and answer to an educated/trained therapist, I wonder what they'd say? "You have people who love you/people who care/so many dreams and goals left to accomplish/you're still young/this is just a temporary state of mind/therapy can help you etc.

So... what reason(s) keep you going to stay alive?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

If i was attractive, i would stay alive to capitalize on pretty privilage. Maybe love as well, but without the previous reason, love is a lot harder to find.

That's pretty much it for me. Money in of itself does not appeal to me.

I am not "alive" by choice. Just waiting for my time to CTB.

 

[Shadow777]

This is going to sound vague but I think everyone's reason for living differs it's a subjective thing for one it is their career others children or a spouse maybe a dream of starting a business. Why am I still here fear and also I don't want to hurt my mother. I think those are the main reasons for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only reason why I am still here is because suicide is so difficult, there is the lack of peaceful and reliable way to exit and the fear of failure. There is nothing that could ever make me want to live, and that if it was easier to leave this world, I would already be gone. My life is only misery and suffering and this will never change. I should have never been born in the first place. To me, life could never be worth living. I prefer the sound of non existence.

 

[Huntfish34]

For my parents / family, friends, and a massive fear of the unknown . It's all been fading fairly quickly though, so who knows.

I wish you Nothing but the best,. Thanks for sharing and Welcome to SS.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I don't know how old you are however you have no interest in a wife and kids? I am still here because I am Still scared. I fluctuate between not fearing death and fearing death.

 

[LeavingEarly]

Old age looks terrible. I want to go well before that.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I have absolutely no good reason to be here anymore. It's purely fear that keeps me alive. And that is a very flimsy barrier which will give out soon enough. I do want my ctb to be viewed as a protestation against the evils of existence. Only a few will sympathise with this, but it's only those people whose opinions I care about anyway.

Old age looks terrible. I want to go well before that.

Truly. Because of the current drama about Johnny Depp, I stumbled across a video of him in his youth and it's depressing how much he has declined. I will never understand people who aren't bothered by, or even embrace ageing. To me it's a nasty, horrible scourge upon the world.

 

[Leiden]

No, there isn't anything in the world that makes life worth living. There is nothing that can help, there is no Joy, no peace, no hope, there is only intense suffering, pain, sadness, anxiety, the past, and I hope I don't wake up tomorrow. I don't want to live. My only wish is to die.

 

[sueoffside]

I actually made a pros and cons list for ctb. Dancing, drinking, cigarettes, fear of hurting my friends and family, laughter, sex, music, drugs and my cat (pro ctb still in the lead at 27 reasons for lmao)

 

[Al Cappella]

No, especially none that would involve people.

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

I don't know how old you are however you have no interest in a wife and kids? I am still here because I am Still scared. I fluctuate between not fearing death and fearing death.

I was married once (together with her for about 13 years) and it ended civilly. She's a good person too, I wish her nothing but the best. No kids either, they're great for other people but I never had any at all. I wouldn't get married again though, I'm not against marriage or I'm bitter about my breakup either but I feel like marriage is one of those things you do once if it's for all the right reasons with the right person. However, if it doesn't work out and you ever get to do it again, I dunno, it feels cheapened or at the very least, diluted.

I get the fluctuating too. I don't fear death now, I think I've always known this was going to be the way I was going to die (CTB), I just keep on holding on because the moment I figure I've given up, the universe bails me out somehow and I'm still here! If a cat has 9 lives, I'm on life #24 maybe now, I keep on getting chances when I really shouldn't. I don't loath myself either, I'm just tired of keeping up now with life.

If i was attractive, i would stay alive to capitalize on pretty privilage. Maybe love as well, but without the previous reason, love is a lot harder to find.

That's pretty much it for me. Money in of itself does not appeal to me.

I am not "alive" by choice. Just waiting for my time to CTB.

I'm attractive and maybe I've worked that into privilege too. I've loved and been loved (although, I will say, I loved my dog more than most humans when he was still alive with me). Money doesn't appeal to me either, I've walked away from a lot of money in the past and I'll never be motivated by it.

This is going to sound vague but I think everyone's reason for living differs it's a subjective thing for one it is their career others children or a spouse maybe a dream of starting a business. Why am I still here fear and also I don't want to hurt my mother. I think those are the main reasons for me.

Not vague at all, there's 7+ billion people in the world and everyone has various reasons for pushing on in life and most of the reasons change or are in flux most of the time too.

I like moms are a huge reason for carrying on too... I get the psychology behind it too. They protected you in the womb and nurtured you growing up too, so it's a proverbial slap in the face to them to end things.

For my parents / family, friends, and a massive fear of the unknown . It's all been fading fairly quickly though, so who knows.

I wish you Nothing but the best,. Thanks for sharing and Welcome to SS.

Thank you for the kind words too... I wish you well and hope you can find your way through the unknown too. I mean, aren't we all just winging it through life through the unknown and through fear?

 

[Darkover]

technology learn the secrets of dna and you will have the ability to engineer life itself, unlimited computational power solve any and all problems, programming science and mathematics, so much to learn so little room to store whats learn, i can't wait for machine intelligence to arrive, the resaon this place is so shit is because human being are so stuipd barely capable of remembering or knowing anything interesting on the other hand you have computer with perfect memory can remember everything word for word, and repeat it back to you, i mean if every human being know how computers and technology worked we wouldent be half has handicapped has we are.

 

[kosameAmagai]

it isn't
im only alive because i dont have the guts to ctb, and also i dont want to ruin the life of my family

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Always New rabbit holes to explore online
Pussy
Video games
Exercise and long walks

 

[Ashu]

Love and beauty.

 

[followingfate]

I'm only here because I know it would devastate my partner, and I can't imagine how horrible it would feel to lose your partner like that.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

So many reasons to live if you have resources, purpose, inspiration, friends and family. Im missing most of those- mainly motivation. I'm dead inside and professionally incompetant. I've never known my purpose and have trouble finding remuneration. This machine is defective.

 

[FatalSystemError591]

My girlfriend and my cat are the only ones keeping me here.

 

[loststar]

All the cliched things that people say, love, family, experiences ect i know people that have all these things and the end of the day they still spend hours in front of a tv to distract themselves

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Old age looks terrible. I want to go well before that.

I'll add to that old age all alone looks even more terrible.

I'm new to this site (first post ever) and I've contemplated suicide lots in the past (including a couple half-assed attempts) and still continue to.

My mom passed away recently, it was expected, she was pretty sick and it was time for her. I'm sad but, tbh, I never had a really great relationship with her too.

I always had guilt about committing suicide while my parents were still alive but now with my mom gone (and I'm sure my dad will die of a broken heart too in the not-too-distant future), I've def now started to think about it again.

There's one question I always singled back to when it came to giving up and CTB: What reason(s) do you have to continue to stay alive?

Honestly, I've done it all in my life. I had a good childhood, got educated, made love to beautiful women (beautiful on the outside and inside), travelled and just experienced life in so many forms. I've been up in life and I've been down, both have taught me a lot about myself and the world. I'm just tired now at this point, there's nothing really left for me to do and I'm not only bored but just plain exhausted from watching the world burn itself down literally and figuratively.

Honestly, I have nothing to live for at this point, I really don't. If I posed this question and answer to an educated/trained therapist, I wonder what they'd say? "You have people who love you/people who care/so many dreams and goals left to accomplish/you're still young/this is just a temporary state of mind/therapy can help you etc.

So... what reason(s) keep you going to stay alive?

I guess if you actually have some of the good things in life, it is easier to stay alive. But hell, even people who have it all cash it in sometimes. I think you need to have some type of fulfillment, and I thing what that is varies with all of us.

 

[charlotte_]

There's one question I always singled back to when it came to giving up and CTB: What reason(s) do you have to continue to stay alive?

for my loved ones: my cat, my best friend, my other closed friends ect. and also probably because I still have some motivations. I want to write a book related to the topic of suicide, to create some artworks. my life is honestly pretty shit, but im glad im still capable of pursuing my far fetched motivations. I hope the best for you too. whether you choose to continue your journey in life or give up on it, I hope you will be satisfied with your decision and will find peace for yourself.

 

[incorporationated]

Hope

 

[Mimi_]

There's none

 

[outrider567]

In my case, no, there are none

 

[reiko1337]

I guess you can say that the uncertainty of what comes next is a bit daunting, and nothingness seems rather boring. But once you get over the fear and accept the peace, then there's really nothing.

 

[Lament]

What's currently stopping me from CTB is knowing that I would miss everything too much. Music, movies, friends, stories, family, food. I guess these weigh against all my struggles enough that they balance the scales enough that I'm keeping myself alive. I'd imagine that if the problems got worse, or I lost the emotional attachment to those material concepts, I could see myself being in a tougher spot. Even now I still contemplate to myself every few times a week.

 

[whatevs]

Friends. Family. Romance. Passion.

 

[Source Energy]

No, I can't.

 

[ratlover223]

love. i live for my fiancée even if i suffer.