I feel broken even though I've had a good life

[JaegerBombastic]

I've had a fairly standard and peaceful life for the most part. My parents were kind and loving, not abusive at all. They were always supportive of me. We've always been financially stable, even somewhat privileged. No trauma to speak of. But for some reason I just can't go on.

I've lost the ability to talk to people and have no friends. I feel completely alone and like everyone hates me. Honestly, every time I post on her I just assume all of you will hate me. I can't get out of bed in the morning. Every second of every day I just feel like shit. I'm apathetic towards everything and hate myself. I don't know what to do. I'm really scared and don't want to die, but feel like it's better than going on living like this.

I feel like I'm screaming into the void, but this is my only way of asking for help. It's probably not healthy asking for help in this place, but I don't know what else to do. For some reason I'm terrified to ask for real help. I'm sorry for rambling, I'm in a really bad place right now.

 

[PI3.14]

For how long have you been feeling like this? Is there anything in your life that might be causing these feelings? Why are you afraid to ask for help?

 

[naookoo128]

I've lost the ability to talk to people and have no friends.

Do you know at what point your ability to talk seemed lost to you? Understanding that could help a lot.

It's probably not healthy asking for help in this place, but I don't know what else to do.

I think it can help, if you want help and if you can accept it. But a good connection IRL is always better, especially when it´s about such deep mental and social problems. But if you dont have someone at the moment and it is just too hard to get out - and sometimes it is just like that, dont hate yourself for that - it can be a start at least.

 

[Hellis]

I have experienced the same thing, did pills about it and got myself some real problems on the way. The feeling of needing to fix something about yourself that isn't there is terrible, it's like treating the untreatable.

I hear you brother, you aren't alone in this. The good life people speak of is subjective, don't feel a need to have to be okay just because society says so.

Feel free to use our recovery forum if you want to pursue help, since you mentioned it. Responses are slower, but some people avoid advice on vent posts here as to not seem rude.

 

[neurotic]

I've had a fairly standard and peaceful life for the most part. My parents were kind and loving, not abusive at all. They were always supportive of me. We've always been financially stable, even somewhat privileged. No trauma to speak of. But for some reason I just can't go on.

I've lost the ability to talk to people and have no friends. I feel completely alone and like everyone hates me. Honestly, every time I post on her I just assume all of you will hate me. I can't get out of bed in the morning. Every second of every day I just feel like shit. I'm apathetic towards everything and hate myself. I don't know what to do. I'm really scared and don't want to die, but feel like it's better than going on living like this.

I feel like I'm screaming into the void, but this is my only way of asking for help. It's probably not healthy asking for help in this place, but I don't know what else to do. For some reason I'm terrified to ask for real help. I'm sorry for rambling, I'm in a really bad place right now.

I thought this way too. I went to therapy and was instantly diagnosed with trauma for years from every therapist, which didn't make any sense, I felt I was completely normal for over 10 years. Please really question your surroundings. Everything makes so much more sense now, why I was so unhappy. You're probably unhappy for a good reason, don't ever discount yourself.

 

[SomeoneYetNoone]

I've had a fairly standard and peaceful life for the most part. My parents were kind and loving, not abusive at all. They were always supportive of me. We've always been financially stable, even somewhat privileged. No trauma to speak of. But for some reason I just can't go on.

I've lost the ability to talk to people and have no friends. I feel completely alone and like everyone hates me. Honestly, every time I post on her I just assume all of you will hate me. I can't get out of bed in the morning. Every second of every day I just feel like shit. I'm apathetic towards everything and hate myself. I don't know what to do. I'm really scared and don't want to die, but feel like it's better than going on living like this.

I feel like I'm screaming into the void, but this is my only way of asking for help. It's probably not healthy asking for help in this place, but I don't know what else to do. For some reason I'm terrified to ask for real help. I'm sorry for rambling, I'm in a really bad place right now.

You should work up the courage to try therapy. Just go online and find some therapists in your area. Look at their websites, pictures, etc. Pick someone you feel you could be comfortable with. Just tell yourself you'll try it once. You don't have to go back if you don't like it. Once you do it, you will wonder why you were so scared. You are here telling others about how you feel. You can do it in person, too. No judgement, just someone that actually wants to help you! You can do it. Is it easier to kill yourself, or make a therapy appointment? I am hoping for the best for you.