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gonnadiehopefully

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Aug 29, 2026
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Hello , so I am thinking of using SN. I also found a product on Amazon , I think I trust it most since we have used it most.
I don't have a bank account or online account of my own , I was going to when I was supposedly moving out but I didn't. Now , they didn't because they are like ' we buy everything you need '.

This item isn't accepting cash on delivery from my account. There is a family account but ofcourse I wouldn't be using that for this purchase. I am scared of ordering from other websites , the tracking or delays because I share the house.

This is another problem , if an order arrives and A is at home then she would likely enquire maybe not so much but will. I would have to answer , if she ends up at the door before me she might ask the delivery person herself.
If B would be at home , he would enquire more deeply , might hope I open it infront of him. If I wouldn't , regardless , much chances that he would tell C regardless. I mean both of them can tell C. Then C would ask me.

My mind was thinking options - I can lie to A and B saying I ordered some big pack of something to eat. Then I actually order it among other stuff from the grocery service so it delivers fast , and i get to the door fast / get it. So when C asks ( she arrives later ) , I can show her the food item I ordered , not what I actually did. Obviously risks , someone can get the door before me or just look inside the bag / ask me anyways. [ I checked , I can't order groceries because of my location. I would have to go out and get the food earlier but they will probably figure out what I bought ]

Or , I can tell them that I ordered a birthday gift for C which I wouldn't tell what it is , ( in jan is the birthday) and they would figure out eventually so I would say through my own personal account I did.
This feels more fullproof as neither C , B or A would ask again. But I am not as close with C , actually lowkey don't care about her anymore and she knows it. So , I am not sure if she would buy it or how to make her buy it.

These are big obstacles on their own. I definitely don't want any extra D , E , F in the house. They stay faraway but visit at times.

I would really appreciate the help. I am hoping to do it by this year end.
 
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N@te

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Aug 6, 2026
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Hello , so I am thinking of using SN. I also found a product on Amazon , I think I trust it most since we have used it most.
I don't have a bank account or online account of my own , I was going to when I was supposedly moving out but I didn't. Now , they didn't because they are like ' we buy everything you need '.

This item isn't accepting cash on delivery from my account. There is a family account but ofcourse I wouldn't be using that for this purchase. I am scared of ordering from other websites , the tracking or delays because I share the house.

This is another problem , if an order arrives and A is at home then she would likely enquire maybe not so much but will. I would have to answer , if she ends up at the door before me she might ask the delivery person herself.
If B would be at home , he would enquire more deeply , might hope I open it infront of him. If I wouldn't , regardless , much chances that he would tell C regardless. I mean both of them can tell C. Then C would ask me.

My mind was thinking options - I can lie to A and B saying I ordered some big pack of something to eat. Then I actually order it among other stuff from the grocery service so it delivers fast , and i get to the door fast / get it. So when C asks ( she arrives later ) , I can show her the food item I ordered , not what I actually did. Obviously risks , someone can get the door before me or just look inside the bag / ask me anyways. [ I checked , I can't order groceries because of my location. I would have to go out and get the food earlier but they will probably figure out what I bought ]

Or , I can tell them that I ordered a birthday gift for C which I wouldn't tell what it is , ( in jan is the birthday) and they would figure out eventually so I would say through my own personal account I did.
This feels more fullproof as neither C , B or A would ask again. But I am not as close with C , actually lowkey don't care about her anymore and she knows it. So , I am not sure if she would buy it or how to make her buy it.

These are big obstacles on their own. I definitely don't want any extra D , E , F in the house. They stay faraway but visit at times.

I would really appreciate the help. I am hoping to do it by this year end.
what do you mean, you "found a product on Amazon"? What product?
 
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