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tired93

tired93

Member
Mar 27, 2026
7
Hi.
I wish I could feel clear-headed enough to perfectly understand what a mess my life has been, but lately I've been in a state of perpetual 'emotional numbness' where I don't feel or experience any pain. The sensation itself is degrading. Last night, though, I made a slight connection with my suffering: to put it simply, my life is a joke, and I am a total failure. I want to leave this world, but without any 'pathos': like something that needs to be done just because it's logical.
 
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flowerbomb

flowerbomb

Student
Nov 28, 2024
106
I am sorry that your life is like this....

The title of your thread reminded me of the concept of "Bilanzsuizid" of the german psychiatrist Alfred Hoche. I found mainly german articles, but he describes suicide also as a fact-based and rational decision like weighing life on a scale. Perhaps you can translate this for you in your language, its a description of this understanding of suicide. https://www.ethikrat.org/fileadmin/PDF-Dateien/Veranstaltungen/anhoerung-17-12-2020-lindner.pdf
 
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Kokonoe

Kokonoe

Worthless, Broken Doll
Apr 20, 2023
86
yes. that's what i'm going to be doing. there's just no other way for my life to end.
 
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aceHardlight

Not even sad, just dead inside
May 1, 2026
29
I don't really see the need to blame yourself and call yourself a failure etc.
This world is largely ableist and built for people with a healthy brain and body, which are at least 50% genes, so factors you cannot even control.

Your luck does not only decide your genes, but also in what kind of environment you grew up in etc.
Either you get lucky or you don't, it's survival of the fittest.

Calling yourself a failure will only lower your self esteem and people around you who belittle you do it to feel better about themselves.

That said I don't think you can commit rational suicide from a place of irrational self hatred.
 
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TheHangman

Member
May 16, 2026
12
There is that old cliche that suicide "is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". My belief is that LIFE is a temporary problem. Does that make sense?
 
DoomsdayCTB

DoomsdayCTB

Member
Apr 24, 2026
69
yes that's why i'm here. if I made an entire list of why I'm tired of living, I think more SANE and HUMANE psychiatrists would agree people in my situations deserve access to MAID. that pills can only go so far, it's my situations that I can't escape from. i've finally hit the point to car living and possible prostitution just to escape the evil cunt I live with. and because it's the summer-it's awful to do car living in the summer + gas being so expensive (and i'm in debt period). it was them and a series of unfortunate events... cruel and unusual punishment to live this out. we put dogs down so they don't suffer. I don't get it.
 

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