miles-away
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- May 13, 2025
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People always consider me smart because I know a lot of useless facts, read a lot and generally enjoy culture and the arts. Which is ironic because academically I'm quite shit. I've made consistently bad grades since Kindergarten. It wasn't really from a lack of knowledge about the subject. More so, I had a problem turning in homework which naturally tanked my grades. I remember one kid once congratulating me for finally turning in my homework. For entire school life, I never aimed higher than a C since it was the bare minimum and at least I was passing.
I'm still in community college after like, 6 years. Mostly from dropping in and out as well as changing my major three times. For one semester last year, I decided to actually lock in and I managed to make straight A's. Then I fell into a depressive rut and my streak was ruined. I'm close to finally finishing my associates and this summer I took two classes. I logged into today to turn in a essay only to see an email from my professor saying she dropped me from the class because I had an F and there was no way I was going to make it up by the final day in the semester. I failed it because I forgot to turn in a few assignments in the beginning. This is the 2nd F I've gotten so far.
I'm very ashamed of myself but it's not unlike me. I recently got diagnosed with ADHD and I'm pressing for adderall or quidnell at least. I really do want to get better and I do believe in change through consistent effort. But when you're an academic fuck up your entire life, can you change?
I'm still in community college after like, 6 years. Mostly from dropping in and out as well as changing my major three times. For one semester last year, I decided to actually lock in and I managed to make straight A's. Then I fell into a depressive rut and my streak was ruined. I'm close to finally finishing my associates and this summer I took two classes. I logged into today to turn in a essay only to see an email from my professor saying she dropped me from the class because I had an F and there was no way I was going to make it up by the final day in the semester. I failed it because I forgot to turn in a few assignments in the beginning. This is the 2nd F I've gotten so far.
I'm very ashamed of myself but it's not unlike me. I recently got diagnosed with ADHD and I'm pressing for adderall or quidnell at least. I really do want to get better and I do believe in change through consistent effort. But when you're an academic fuck up your entire life, can you change?