I think I should have enough credentials in this forum. Lol. A lot of horrible stuff happened in my life in the past 7 months. Very soon there will be happen some developments that have the potential to screw my situation completely. Family members getting psychotic, losing their jobs, having risky operations. My mom is really overburdened with the situation. I think she hopes that at least I don't cause too much stress. I am internalizing everything. I keep it to myself. But I don't have the feeling I will be able to do that for a much longer time. I am in a bad situation. My family is in a predicament and this isn't good for my mental health. But becoming acute suicidal will cause a lot of stress too. I just hope if I kill myself at least for me this living nightmare is over. I haven't caused all of this. I am not really responsible that everything is burning. I just don't like getting grilled alive...
I caught myself today (or yesterday) that I checked my former source for SN. And on the website it said its sold out. I ordered it from Poland to Germany. People intervened in my suicide by calling the police. And shortly before I could take it the police was at my door. I can say that I didn't get a fine. The police officers joked that I will get a severe punishment for ordering it. I think they were aware I am a very law abiding citizen. I just told them you can order it with no restrictions they googled offerings, were baffled and eventually I didn't get a fine. I am not sure whether that's actually the truth (that importing SN was legal...) but the bluff worked. Lol...
It is for me currently an emergency plan. I could see how me and my family are in a lot of trouble soon. I will try to resist to order SN. But if we go down I don't want to stay.
Personally, I would prefer to buy it from a smaller store. Preferable within the EU.
I can remember that there was a time everyone bought their SN from the website of Kenneth Law. I could imagine authorities are looking for the bigger sellers and the lists of their buyers.
I know I shouldn't be picky. But that's just my personal perferences on this issue. You can send me any reliable and trustworthy source. I am not sure how availablity of SN looks like currently.
Thanks a lot!
I caught myself today (or yesterday) that I checked my former source for SN. And on the website it said its sold out. I ordered it from Poland to Germany. People intervened in my suicide by calling the police. And shortly before I could take it the police was at my door. I can say that I didn't get a fine. The police officers joked that I will get a severe punishment for ordering it. I think they were aware I am a very law abiding citizen. I just told them you can order it with no restrictions they googled offerings, were baffled and eventually I didn't get a fine. I am not sure whether that's actually the truth (that importing SN was legal...) but the bluff worked. Lol...
It is for me currently an emergency plan. I could see how me and my family are in a lot of trouble soon. I will try to resist to order SN. But if we go down I don't want to stay.
Personally, I would prefer to buy it from a smaller store. Preferable within the EU.
I can remember that there was a time everyone bought their SN from the website of Kenneth Law. I could imagine authorities are looking for the bigger sellers and the lists of their buyers.
I know I shouldn't be picky. But that's just my personal perferences on this issue. You can send me any reliable and trustworthy source. I am not sure how availablity of SN looks like currently.
Thanks a lot!
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