can someone help me find dnp without using bitcoin?

[Braindead Atheist]

I'm retarded and can't use bitcoin or bitcoin wallet. I need to find another way to get 2000mg of dnp. I'd like to be dead by the end of next year. I see no reason to stay. I'm retarded and hate everything My parents are forcing me to be independant and everytime I say that that stresses me out to the point of killing myself they threaton to call the cops. They think getting rid of me via psych ward, jail, or forcing me out on my own is the only way. They don't see things from my perspective and they don't want to support me fincially. I get bullied and even fired at almost everywhere I work and I just not capable of what jobs require these days. I'm tired of the humiliation and heat I get from managers, hr, and coworkers. I feel embarrassed that I can't do anything and they shame me for it. and thats on a good day. On a bad one I'm screamed at or fired. I have 1 job through workforce partnership, but it only pays 14 hourly and tax eats up alot of it. I work 35 hours and have school and I'll need a second job just to pay rent. thats to much stress and I'll have almost no time to recharge.

I look at all these successful people who never had my issues or anything major to deal with and I wonder what it's like to be them. my stupid parents only care about protecting my perfect brothers from me. My dad literally used to call me "queen of mean" and my mom refuses to see from my prospective. and I'm the bad one... I was still expected to work when I was getting bullied and harassed. They didn't let me quit untill I found something else and acted like they were doing me a favor. I'm supposed to "grow up" well you know what?! I'm to burnt out from all their crap and the abusive situations they put me through. Countless stays at abusive psyhwards, an alternative middle school full of people out to get me, and even JAIL. Where I was STRIP SEARCHED. Btw that goes on your permanent record, leading to even less job opportunities. They would even do it again. I told them that I don't love them, and this is pretty much why. If I move out its only a win for them. What do I get?! The same abuse and shaming.

I'm in school for graphic design, but I know its pointless with my useless brain. I need a brain to be able to back up whatever talent I think I have. I'm not even that good compared to my classmates. My best isn't good enough and I HAVE kept trying and I HAVE worked hard. I don't feel like I ca push myself any harder without getting burnt out. So can someone here send me 2000mg of DNP and I'll pay you back? I'm to scared to go through with blood choke and theres only some much I can tolerate even with good friends. I'm tired of the endless disappointment and burden that NO ONE is helping me carry.

Please help me. Please get me dnp. I don't have the ability to use bitcoin wallet or machine. I will pay you back. I just need it.

 

[jodes2]

Which country are you in? If you could possibly move to the UK I think you'd find employers a lot more accepting of health conditions, there are strict laws protecting workers here, much better than the USA for example. Other western European countries are just as good too. And if work fails, you might be able to qualify for free housing from the government, but you might have had to have been here for a while - but not necessarily.

What's dnp? You might just need to ask for help using bitcoin. I absolutely hate using crypto and the dark net, but it's doable with patience and some learning. Patience my friend is a great virtue And btw don't use bitcoin, fees are ridiculous and a pain in the arse. Use XMR(monero) for transactions on the DN, it's safer, and minimal fees, and use an intermediate currency like litecoin if you're having trouble buying monero directly

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Which country are you in? If you could possibly move to the UK I think you'd find employers a lot more accepting of health conditions, there are strict laws protecting workers here, much better than the USA for example. Other western European countries are just as good too. And if work fails, you might be able to qualify for free housing from the government, but you might have had to have been here for a while - but not necessarily.

What's dnp?

yeah. Ig maybe. It doesn't matter anymore. Im going to try blood choke tonight.

You know in those old movies you see a horse and buggy where the horse is being manipulated to move forward by the dangling carrot? While that's what its like for me. I'm the horse trying to catch the carrot all while being whipped by people. and you know what? I'm never going to catch that carrot. I don't even think there ever was one. It was all a big lie that I had this art talent that would take me places. People more talented than me have no luck, so why would I? Especially sense I'm "special" and whatever other crap people try to tell me. My own "gifts and talents" were never enough, and all art ever did was get me bullied by a mean principal and her oversized pet nun. I was using it as a coping skill, but now it reminds me of what I'll never have (success) and what I'll always have (endless problems) I wish you well and I hope I'm successful. Soon it will all be over, and I will never be conscious again. If I'm successful, everyone on this site has been great. We all deserve better than this broken, useless, and disappointing "gift" that most people say life is. Well, I didn't like my "gift" so I'm returning it. I don't really care who this hurts because I did stay for those people for some time. They got a little bit of what they wanted, but me? Wheres what I want? Heck my needs can't even be met. I needed so much more from this life, but I couldn't get it.

 

[jodes2]

yeah. Ig maybe. It doesn't matter anymore. Im going to try blood choke tonight.

You know in those old movies you see a horse and buggy where the horse is being manipulated to move forward by the dangling carrot? While that's what its like for me. I'm the horse trying to catch the carrot all while being whipped by people. and you know what? I'm never going to catch that carrot. I don't even think there ever was one. It was all a big lie that I had this art talent that would take me places. People more talented than me have no luck, so why would I? Especially sense I'm "special" and whatever other crap people try to tell me. My own "gifts and talents" were never enough, and all art ever did was get me bullied by a mean principal and her oversized pet nun. I was using it as a coping skill, but now it reminds me of what I'll never have (success) and what I'll always have (endless problems) I wish you well and I hope I'm successful. Soon it will all be over, and I will never be conscious again. If I'm successful, everyone on this site has been great. We all deserve better than this broken, useless, and disappointing "gift" that most people say life is. Well, I didn't like my "gift" so I'm returning it. I don't really care who this hurts because I did stay for those people for some time. They got a little bit of what they wanted, but me? Wheres what I want? Heck my needs can't even be met. I needed so much more from this life, but I couldn't get it.

Sorry you want to go so badly

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Sorry you want to go so badly

I failed. idk i just want to die painlessly in my sleep without realizing it. that way i'm just gone without realizing i ever existed.

 

[jodes2]

I failed. idk i just want to die painlessly in my sleep without realizing it. that way i'm just gone without realizing i ever existed.

Sorry friend, I know your pain. I wish I didn't exist right now. Too bloody painful. Sorry you failed

 

[beingfree]

Is dnp dinitrophenol? Isn't that going to be quite unpleasant?

 

[WaitingForMyRide]

DNP overdose would be super suckful I'd imagine. Like being microwaved and cooked to death.

 

[Looking4Answers2]

Ya this is an odd choice to chose for someone who wants painless...
You're cooking yourself from the inside

 

[Braindead Atheist]

DNP overdose would be super suckful I'd imagine. Like being microwaved and cooked to death.

I thought it decreased body tempature?

 

[WaitingForMyRide]

I thought it decreased body tempature?

Hell to the no.

 

[Looking4Answers2]

I thought it decreased body tempature?

Opposite. It's used in bodybuilding as a fat burner because it ups your temperature.
But if you take to much can cook your insides.
Also makes you full on lethargic

 

[WaitingForMyRide]

It does do wonders for burning fat but was banned due to the side effects. Thermogenic. The more you know.

 

[Looking4Answers2]

It does do wonders for burning fat but was banned due to the side effects. Thermogenic. The more you know.

Banned by? Are we talking government? Or bodybuilding? Cuz ifbb doesn't test for anything lol

 

[WaitingForMyRide]

It used to be over the counter but people were using it too much, overheating, and dying. So they banned it here in the USA. FDA.