yusso
Member
- Apr 17, 2023
- 7
I enjoy my day to day with friends, I have conversations, I go out.
I worry, I relax, I look around, I look at people, people look at me.
I breath, I feel, I experience, I live.
I know what it entails to be human.
I look at the world I live in with eyes as open as I can.
The emotions and feelings are sometimes as good as they are bad. They make me glad I opened my eyes again while also making me feel as if no deeper hole exists.
Being a living thing, I have had the time to think and make decisions as to how to live. I acknowledge this and engrave it into my very being.
I have acknowledged that there is no rule stating I have to live the way I have been told to.
A long life, merits, money, a legacy.
I have acknowledged that I get to choose what I enjoy and what I dread.
The way to have a happy and fulfilling life is to simply find it happy and fulfilling.
With all this said, I am flawed like everything else.
I am positive being happy is what I should be.
But I say, do, and make choices that strive me further away from a happy existence.
The reason why is nothing short of absurd.
I do not wish to be happy.
I wish to be exempt from suffering.
I do not care for things that fulfill me.
But oh... I so hate the things that cause me pain.
So in truth.
With this puzzle we call life I wish for nothing more than to lay on an open field, staring out into the distance with no worries left in my heart.
Forever.
I worry, I relax, I look around, I look at people, people look at me.
I breath, I feel, I experience, I live.
I know what it entails to be human.
I look at the world I live in with eyes as open as I can.
The emotions and feelings are sometimes as good as they are bad. They make me glad I opened my eyes again while also making me feel as if no deeper hole exists.
Being a living thing, I have had the time to think and make decisions as to how to live. I acknowledge this and engrave it into my very being.
I have acknowledged that there is no rule stating I have to live the way I have been told to.
A long life, merits, money, a legacy.
I have acknowledged that I get to choose what I enjoy and what I dread.
The way to have a happy and fulfilling life is to simply find it happy and fulfilling.
With all this said, I am flawed like everything else.
I am positive being happy is what I should be.
But I say, do, and make choices that strive me further away from a happy existence.
The reason why is nothing short of absurd.
I do not wish to be happy.
I wish to be exempt from suffering.
I do not care for things that fulfill me.
But oh... I so hate the things that cause me pain.
So in truth.
With this puzzle we call life I wish for nothing more than to lay on an open field, staring out into the distance with no worries left in my heart.
Forever.
