Calm Acceptance

[txjambi]

Has anyone else visualized or "daydreamed" about CTB? I was giving thought to it, and felt a calming sensation through by body. I was walking myself through how I would do it, could feel the sensation of the bullets entering my brain, then what I could only describe as my spirit energy leaving my body. Followed by calm and peace.

It's almost a foregone conclusion. I have the guns ready to be picked up at the shop. Arrangements have been made for my pet. I'm almost ready to experience this.

 

[Actovania]

yeah i have visualized myself jumping to my death many times. but something i want to mention is i have had actual dreams of myself cutting myself before but i haven't actually done it in years because it is just so scary to me. i don't know why the dreams happen. i guess they are nightmares

 

[GhostInTheMachine]

Every single night before I sleep. I either having a panic attack, a sensation of letting go, or a mix of both.

 

[whywere]

No and yes.

Usually no until my 24/7 chronic pain kicks into full gear then yes.

I have told my pain clinic and on here, if and when quantity overtakes quality of life then decisions will be made.

Walter