Venting Buying my prescription today made me realize I've truely hit rock bottom

[literallynoone]

Went to a pharmacy to get my meds today. The pharmacist looked annoyed and angry but the second she saw my prescription and looked at me she became really nice. Offered me a bag, asked me if i need it labeled since they had to give me an equivalent meds (my original one was not in stock) and just had that grandma look in her eyes. It felt really nice untill I got back to my car looked at myself in the rear view mirror and realized why. I don't think I've ever look this exhausted in my life. Badly shaven, bags under my eyes and a thousand yard stare. I've always managed to hide how I felt inside infront of other people but if this is my default look now I don't even know what to do.

 

[Graveyardly]

Went to a pharmacy to get my meds today. The pharmacist looked annoyed and angry but the second she saw my prescription and looked at me she became really nice. Offered me a bag, asked me if i need it labeled since they had to give me an equivalent meds (my original one was not in stock) and just had that grandma look in her eyes. It felt really nice untill I got back to my car looked at myself in the rear view mirror and realized why. I don't think I've ever look this exhausted in my life. Badly shaven, bags under my eyes and a thousand yard stare. I've always managed to hide how I felt inside infront of other people but if this is my default look now I don't even know what to do.

Yeah I feel you. Since about 7 years I've been heavily medicated, I have a real shopping list of like 7 or 8 articles on prescription.
Sometimes when they take too long and I want to break the silence I say "sorry for the huge order" or something like that. Inevitably I get a "we all have bad times". Was reassuring the first year, but quickly became a shaming ritual for me to pick up my prescription. Sometimes I hold back from saying "well I just have a bad life" lol.

 

[literallynoone]

Yeah I feel you. Since about 7 years I've been heavily medicated, I have a real shopping list of like 7 or 8 articles on prescription.
Sometimes when they take too long and I want to break the silence I say "sorry for the huge order" or something like that. Inevitably I get a "we all have bad times". Was reassuring the first year, but quickly became a shaming ritual for me to pick up my prescription. Sometimes I hold back from saying "well I just have a bad life" lol.

I can only imagine how bad that must feel. Take care

 

[Graveyardly]

I can only imagine how bad that must feel. Take care

Well that ain't too bad I mostly try to laugh it off. You too take care bud.

 

[theboy]

Hey
Don't take it the wrong way :) Not many people smile these days

 

[literallynoone]

Hey
Don't take it the wrong way :) Not many people smile these days

Oh hell no. She seemed like a very nice person and it made me happier. It really felt like she thought "he looks like shit but he's still here good on him". It's the little things like this that have kept me going these last couple of weeks.

 

[theboy]

I think it's great :)

Oh hell no. She seemed like a very nice person and it made me happier. It really felt like she thought "he looks like shit but he's still here good on him". It's the little things like this that have kept me going these last couple of weeks.