Bus is approaching to SN city

[Fktw0rld]

Kind of looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time. Blood test passed, aquarium test on its way in. I have meto 10s and domperidone 10s. Also propranolol but I think we've abandoned that. Pantoprozale and of course tagamet, but that fell by the wayside also.

Looks like meto, ibuprofen, xanax (it's all I got) and sn it is.

My plan to defeat SI (as best I can) is to enjoy all of my prescription uppers since I no longer have to worry about refilling, quitting or tapering off in the future. Live the next few months worry free then quit everything cold turkey about 5 days prior to my bus arriving. Throw myself into a full blown withdrawal, even deeper depression, mental instability and carelessness. Ride it out for a few days than start fasting for the grand finale.

If anyone has any advice or input that will help me in the meantime, leading up to and finalizing I'd appreciate it.

Also, are there any solidified charts to go by yet or are we still sticking with the 25/50 or 35/50 according to body weight? I saved a couple amount to bodyweight charts not too long ago but then read somewhere within all the threads to disregard them.

Thank you everyone! SS has kept me going for the past 4 years. Between my time lurking and finally creating an account, as paradoxical as it may sound, sanctioned 'suicide' is all that provided me with 'a will to live.'

Love and respect

 

[OceanBlue]

I'm totally dreading, but it's really a privilege to be able to choose the most peaceful death for yourself. I keep reminding myself of all the natural deaths I'll be avoiding and really hoping it will work.

If you don't weigh close to 100kg, then 25 should be enough, I might do 35, but I'm tall and heavy. I think I passed the aq test.

Good luck, if I could hold your hand I would, I need some courage.

(I see it's a 2 year anniversary for me on this website, it saved me from hanging or something much worse.)

 

[Fktw0rld]

I'm totally dreading, but it's really a privilege to be able to choose the most peaceful death for yourself. I keep reminding myself of all the natural deaths I'll be avoiding and really hoping it will work.

If you don't weigh close to 100kg, then 25 should be enough, I might do 35, but I'm tall and heavy. I think I passed the aq test.

Good luck, if I could hold your hand I would, I need some courage.

(I see it's a 2 year anniversary for me on this website, it saved me from hanging or something much worse.)

Same here. I'm going to go the 35 route as well. I'm way over the recommended weight for 25. I recently read up on the aquarium test, it seems complicated to me, hopefully I don't mess it up. I ordered 2 just in case. I initially thought it was just dip the strip into the sn and check it. It seems like there's way more to it.

Thank you for the feedback. When the time is right I believe you'll gather the strength and determination needed to complete the task.

I wish you the absolute best and most peaceful experience possible. We all react differently so I don't pay attention to the horror stories. All that matters is the infinite peace that awaits us on the other end of it.

 

[OceanBlue]

Thank you, the same to you, wish you the most peaceful experience possible.

I initially thought it was just dip the strip into the sn and check it. It seems like there's way more to it.

It's not complicated, I just held it in water for too long at first, it gave incorrect results.