Venting burned soul

[darksouls]

in 2023 I ended up in the intensive unit care
it felt as if I were burning inside
nobody knew what I had
that is when I realized I was dying
it was suddenly so easy to let go of life
the reaper greeted me like an old friend
when I was dying
but he did not want to take me with him
in my feverish delirium I heard a doctor say : "sepsis"
I often wish the whole thing had ended
since then I neither feel dead or alive
what is it that has risen from the fire?

 

[DivineSpark]

I have reads lots of about sepsis, it is nasty and quick killer. In worst case you survive but you lose your limbs (turns black)
Did they give you antibiotics to combat sepsis? In older times when there was no antibiotics, sepsis was pretty much death sentence.

 

[Alexandra_]

I understand your disappointment, I'm so sorry. I've had similar feelings many times after unsuccessful attempts

 

[darksouls]

I have reads lots of about sepsis, it is nasty and quick killer. In worst case you survive but you lose your limbs (turns black)
Did they give you antibiotics to combat sepsis? In older times when there was no antibiotics, sepsis was pretty much death sentence.

yes,I received a lot of antibiotic infusions
that is why I am antibiotic-resistant
seven month after the sepsis both of my female breasts had to be amputated
during this time I was in unbearable pain
it was absolute horror

 

[DivineSpark]

yes,I received a lot of antibiotic infusions
that is why I am antibiotic-resistant
seven month after the sepsis both of my female breasts had to be amputated
during this time I was in unbearable pain
it was absolute horror

I am sorry, no one should suffer like that. I can understand why you want CTB