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wheelsonthebus

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Warning: this thread may psych you out a little. Warning for icky body science.

I keep psyching myself out reading case reports of people surviving GSW to the head. This post discusses the use of handgun positioning to CTB while also minimizing suffering in the event that brain activity does not lower across the board at the same time.

The goal is to cease life functions immediately/before one hits the ground. However, a few things to note (scroll down past the pictures for the conundrum):

- The way we define "dead" is actually not straightforward. If you're familiar with the trope "you are already dead," where the finishing move has sliced the doomed character in half with such speed and precision that they retain awareness before their demise, it's honestly a more accurate depiction than the instadeath often portrayed in live action movies, etc. That isn't to say you can be cleaved in two vertically by a katana and then live long enough for your opponent to get the last word in, but it does mean that a lot of the time, death is more like a Wile E. Coyote cartoon: he's run off the cliff and stares at the viewer for a second before inevitably plunging down. Unlike Wile E, though, the person isn't going to walk out off this unscathed. The person is "dead" because there is nothing that can be done for them. The brain is shutting down, the heart has or is going to stop, they are a fully lost cause.
coyote ive GIF

- "Death" is sometimes defined as "brain death:" the cessation of activity in the brain itself. However, you may recall that there are sometimes cases where a person is declared braindead, but the body is kept alive through life support. Therefore, they are both "dead" and "alive," depending on the context under which the patient is being evaluated.

- There is no binary on/off switch. Even if you were decapitated, unless you lost consciousness from the sudden drop in blood pressure after the neck was cut (recall that when someone has a limb suddenly whacked off, they don't always immediately bleed out. This is a bodily shock response.), there is no reason to assume that the person immediately loses awareness. When decapitation (or medical decapitation, which is defined as any severing of the brainstem: fig 1) occurs, they have lost connection to their body, yes, and therefore to nature's life support, but they may have up to ~30 seconds to experience the world as a disembodied head. While I'm sure the shock overwrites most of the would-be suffering, it's not how I'd like to go out. Imagine heart failure. What about the heart not beating actually kills the person? If we considered this instadeath, there would be a lot more people shooting or stabbing themselves in the heart. Instead, the heart not beating means that blood is no longer pumping. For the same reason that CPR and defibrillation sometimes bring a person back from flatlining (at which point they may have been declared "dead," already), blood not pumping is only a cause of death - and not an especially quick one. It means that the cells in the brain (and everywhere else, but that's not important) are being starved of oxygen. The person will experience suffocation, in a way.

- We don't know precisely where and how consciousness/awareness is created. We do know that people appear to go nightnight when the pons (fig 2a) is destroyed. But the likelihood is that conciousness is not just one stream, but is instead comprised of a number of different inputs and processes all seperate from each other, and that the illusion itself of them all being experienced as one thing is not contained in any one part of the brain. This means that you can "delete" the brainstem and turn off body input and output, or remove the pons and turn off the "world," but what about fear? Well that is mostly in the amygdala (fig2b). Will all pain cease without connection to the spinal cord, or will the bullet hole still hurt if the other processing areas of the brain are not sufficiently damaged (fig 3)? The brain cannot feel pain, but the areas around it absolutely can. Pain itself also is not just one thing, even though, much like awareness, it often feels like it is. There are thought experiments around whether or not a person is immediately unaware even in the event of being destroyed by an explosion - is there not residual awareness, of some sort, in the non-burnt pieces for a few seconds, at least?
Explode Blow Up GIF by reactionseditor

- People have had their entire left and right cerebral hemispheres detached at the corpus callosum (fig 4) surgically and there is evidence to suggest that each "brain" can retain independent impulses - two in one body. This phenomenon inspired the show "Severence" in part, although it's not a realistic portrayl of what goes down in these medical cases. It's called callosal syndrome and is a fun read if you don't like to sleep: Wikipedia article
What this suggests, to me, is that the mind can remain to a degree in whatever area of brain remains, until tissue death or something else causes lack of action potential and the electrical impulses between neurons cease.

- The "brain" is not confined to the head. While the HQ for the nervous systems (plural, yep) are contained in the cranium, the brainstem extends down into the spine as the spinal cord, as we know. The thing is that it doesn't end there, either. The nerves themselves are all connected back to that central area (fig 5), similar to blood vessels in how capillaries branch out from arterioles which branch out from arteries (but without coming back together to form venules and veins) (fig 6). Now, I'm not claiming that conciousness is stored in the balls in the fingertips or the toes; you aren't an octopus whose limbs have their own minds, but it does help serve to reinforce that the brain is not just an easy to destroy node. There are neurons, brain cells, in your entire body. You have tastebuds in your stomach (and... a few other places). Chickens can run around with their head cut off for a while, man, and we are really not that different from chickens.

Okay, pretty picture time!


3 images
fig 1a: brainstem; fig 1b: brainstem having a bad day, viewed from behind












fig 2a: the pons, labeled; fig 2b: the amygdala and cerebellum

(Note that the pons is not the spongy looking thing at the back. That is the cerebellum/hindbrain. If you destroy that, and that only, you simply become very disabled very fast.)






fig 3: pain processing in the brain


















fig 4a: cerebral hemispheres; fig 4b: corpus callosum

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fig 5: nervous system (or as I call him, Steve)
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fig 6a: Steve again, in a cool, new outfit; fig 6b: veins and arteries

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In summary: death isn't a binary. Death isn't even a spectrum. Death is a blanket statement for an ineffable, context-dependant, and often subjective concept, and getting there is sometimes more of a slow meander than a simple hop over.


Now, I'm sure there are theoretical ways of killing someone that meet my standards of instadeath, and real ones, too, but unless someone intends to nuke me, my best bet is going to be a Star Trek transporter malfunction.
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Because of my suspicion that there may remain an exquisite suffering after a fatal headshot that would make even theologians cringe, I have been interested in the trajectory (the path an object takes through space, determined by the object's velocity, which is a combination of its speed and direction) of a bullet in order to minimize any. semblance. of. awareness. in the event of a headshot. You see, I am what the kids call "a pussy."

One thing that you don't want to have running in the background while your system is shutting down is the limbic system.
The limbic system is the beansprout looking thing in the middle of the brain, when you view a cross section (see figures 2 and 3). This bad boy controls instinctual functions, including (and especially) survival mode. That's your SI, your 3 (or 4 or more) Fs: Fight Flight Freeze (etc). Notice that it tickles the amygdala (fear center). In an ideal brain-busting scenario, we eliminate this dude, too, so that there's none of that pesky OH MY GOD AAAA in case of residual awareness.

Now, I am unlucky enough to own an MRI of my brain, so I can map out ideal pathways for a bullet for my own purposes, but to ensure transfer of the hot gasses from the muzzle into the skull (for maximum brain obliteration), it needs to be pressed up against the head, which rules out any aiming into the mouth. Preferably, to ensure lights out for both the body and the mind immediately (minimizing life, awareness, and fear), the bullet needs to pass through the brain stem and pons, as well as ideally up near the amygdala.... hmm. Luckily they are all stacked up nicely on each other.

I WAS thinking about maybe going through the mouth anyways but essentially... deepthroating the gun by using some numbing spray, which can be bought at most adult novelty stores, and shooting up through the nasopharynx (that's the area behind the soft part you feel if you move your tongue down the hard palate towards your throat). The pons is right behind that, plus you'd probably delete your amygdala and midbrain in the process, meaning no fear and no awareness, I figure. The issue then is getting the aim right. Conversely, to go behind the head, executioner style, seems impossible.

Then I did a little art project and discovered the math ain't mathing.
I won't show you a picture of my own brain (take me out to dinner first * ), but I did steal this image of a total stranger off the 'net and overlayed a firearm using Microsoft Paint. Science!

* or bill my insurance. I don't date doctors anymore.

We'll call him Larry.​

Mathaintmathin


Hmm...

Upon further reflection.... this would require Larry to unhinge his jaw like a snake.

Any leveling of the gun to be more realistically in the mouth just shifts the trajectory further down to only destroying the brainstem and hindbrain, meaning that for his last act on this earth, Larry is a vegetable in suffering. Not ideal for Larry!
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You may be thinking, "duh bitch, that's not how you do it, you just put it in at an angle and push." Well, that's what she said. The traditional method, of shooting behind the teeth at an angle into the hard palate, wastes all that explosive power into the sinus and nasal area. You might blow your eyes out, and brain will come out of your nose, but since the goal of this thought experiment isn't just to maximize lethality, but also to ensure no suffering as the grim reaper drags you by your ass, the lion is not concerned with destroying the sinuses.


Short of blowing one's jaw off and then taking the final shot, this is clearly going need a more lateral approach, a go in from the side or behind.


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Luckily, I have been training for this all of my life through the practice of making finger guns at my head any time I am mildly inconvenienced.





The good news is, if restricted to a handgun (even if shotguns are available to you, they can be a little difficult to transport without arising suspicion), it is unlikely the only caliber available to you is full metal jacket .22. This means we are NOT likely looking at the round going straight through and only destroying what lies in a direct, straight path. With hollow point rounds, the damage "explodes" or expands outward. This, coupled with the gasses from the muzzle, makes for a very destructive meeting between metal and grey matter.

Here's a caliber gel comparison. "JHP" means jacketed hollow point. gr is just grain.
Handgun gel comparison


For the purposes discussed on this post, I am less concerned about how far a round is projected, and more about explosive impact and initial damage. Elsewhere on this forum, you can find calibers discussed in more depth. I will leave it at: to very sure with a handgun, one should get a larger caliber (9 mm or above), not allow space between the muzzle and the head to allow the gases at discharge to enter the cranium, and ensure that the ammunition is hollow point. If you already have hollow point purchased in the past, double check to make sure no recalls apply to your batch for not-exploding-good.

Not included here is 10 mm, which is also hella good.





Okay, let's talk aim.

Also discussed here on SaSu is the side positioning of going a bit behind the ear to try and knock out this area. It doesn't allow for the higher order areas of the brain to be targeted, but the hope is that with enough *bang* the area is obliterated well enough to cease function. The same goes for shooting in the "T-zone" which exists from either eye and from top to tip of the nose.

I argue that if you are limited to a lower caliber or no shotgun, and don't want to risk anything less than perfection, then the front facing method (aka shooting yourself in the face) isn't ideal for the same reasons I moved past shooting yourself at an angle through the mouth, if the goal is to maximize initial explosive power into the small anatomy targets discussed.


3 more images

A.
This is recommended a lot, and it does satisfy my requirement of putting blast directly into brain. Unfortunately, much of that blast is to the hindbrain, but there won't be any chance of recovery to be vegetized. The amygdala is screwed, which is nice, but unless the bullet decides to curve up, we're not destroying a lot of upper awareness potential. It's not an especially easy grip, though.




B.
Ultimately, I would argue that #1 in terms of hitting all of the things is right here. Unfortunately, if you are not hypermobile and also an experienced shooter (no flinching allowed), then this isn't going to work for you any better than Larry unhinging his jaw was going to work for him. This is less feasible than A, but hits more targets.



C.

Old reliable. It's just like A except easier on the arms and easy to get right in the mirror. I would rank it above A, certainly. This will destroy the pons and stem and amygdala but again leaves out the other functions, which isn't ideal if you're paranoid like me that the brain is happy to function independently of its parts. You will indirectly mess up the limbic system, which is good, and I would personally alter this to be directly above the ear, instead of the traditional "a little bit behind," since we're getting the pons either way and I'd rather prioritize destruction of the limbic system and the amygdala than the hindbrain. This is my #1 overall in terms of goals achieved and realistic ability to carry out.

Okay folks, I think that's all from me! Again, none of this is a concern if you're more confident than I am that "lights out" is across the board an off switch for the brain. All I know is that I learned the lyrics to the playlist my surgeon was playing the last time I was under anaesthetia, so I don't trust this old noodle to shut off properly if it isn't forced to.

Good luck with all your endeavors, and don't use this information for murder please. There's way better guides for that on the internet, anyways.

Finger Gun GIF by Kyle Gordon
please laugh.




Lighter reading overview

Trajectory and outcomes 👍

How the bullet actually causes massive damage 👍👍

"Previous studies have discussed factors that make survival of an SIGSW more or less likely. Selden et al noted that 98% of patients with a score of 8 or less on the Glasgow Coma Scale did not survive. The orientation of the gun also appears to play a role in that missiles traveling in the sagittal direction are less lethal than ones traveling in the coronal direction. The importance of missile trajectory may be secondary to the different intracranial injuries, as injuries to the brain ventricular system or to both cerebral hemispheres were also associated with increased mortality. The positioning and type of firearm used may also impact lethality. Some researchers postulate that the use of long-barreled firearms placed underneath the chin causes the neck to be hyperextended, resulting in a missile trajectory that avoids intracranial structures. The use of handguns may lead to a reflex jerk that also extends the neck, causing a similar pathway, missing the brain."
JAMA Ophthalmol
Published Online: June 2014
2014;132;(6):730-736. doi:10.1001/jamaophthalmol.2013.8201

Relevant literature review

GSW to the head: what impacts survival?

Ability to act + literature review (warning for medical gore a bit/blood) 👍
 
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People really underestimate the gases that are projected into the brain, it essentially turns the brain into a liquid, but my point still stands that above the ear is best. There is essentially no bone obstruction so the bullet has a minimal chance of fragmenting or ricocheting and if using a hollow point combined with the gases expanding as well the brain stem will also be effected.
 
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I just want to say this is a fantastic piece of article and VERY well written- I'm obsessed with your personality! This needs to be added to resources
 
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People really underestimate the gases that are projected into the brain, it essentially turns the brain into a liquid, but my point still stands that above the ear is best. There is essentially no bone obstruction so the bullet has a minimal chance of fragmenting or ricocheting and if using a hollow point combined with the gases expanding as well the brain stem will also be effected.
I mentioned this earlier on today. The hydrostatic result genuinely liquefies tissue. People severely underestimate how catastrophic these shots are.
 
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People really underestimate the gases that are projected into the brain, it essentially turns the brain into a liquid, but my point still stands that above the ear is best. There is essentially no bone obstruction so the bullet has a minimal chance of fragmenting or ricocheting and if using a hollow point combined with the gases expanding as well the brain stem will also be effected.
yeah that's one reason it's instant lights out.

another the medulla is necessary for maintaining wakefulness . if gas bullet or pressure wave hits the medulla or the blood vesels going to the medulla it's instant unconsiousness. also many other different parts of the brain have to be working together and are needed for consciousness .

I mentioned this earlier on today. The hydrostatic result genuinely liquefies tissue. People severely underestimate how catastrophic these shots are.
yes.

OP discusses hand guns.

this one on wpd . a woman used a 357 magnum handgun blew apart her head

warning the link shows graphic images: .


the rifle i would use has 6 times the power of a 357 magnum handgun ,shown below. will i feel pain with a bullet travelling 3000 feet per second completely exploding my head ? no


3000 feet per second is almost 1 kilometer per second. velocity kills instantly
muzzle-energy-of-various-firearm-cartridges.png



the rifle he uses here is not as powerful as the one i'll be using :

 
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yeah that's one reason it's instant lights out.

another the medulla is necessary for maintaining wakefulness . if gas bullet or pressure wave hits the medulla or the blood vesels going to the medulla it's instant unconsiousness. also many other different parts of the brain have to be working together and are needed for consciousness .


yes.

OP discusses hand guns.

this one on wpd . a woman used a 357 magnum handgun blew apart her head

warning the link shows graphic images: .


the rifle i would use has 6 times the power of a 357 magnum handgun ,shown below. will i feel pain with a bullet travelling 3000 feet per second completely exploding my head ? no


3000 feet per second is almost 1 kilometer per second. velocity kills instantly
muzzle-energy-of-various-firearm-cartridges.png



the rifle he uses here is not as powerful as the one i'll be using :


Totally get you.
 
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this one on wpd . a woman used a 357 magnum handgun blew apart her head
Took a look at it, it looks kinda fake to me plus no way a 357 can do that much damage, that's looks like the effects of a shotgun or high powered rifle.
 
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Yeah. I have no doubt about lethality for sure! But consider this thread to be about my own neurosis above all else haha

I'm super paranoid about residual functions in the periphery of the organ because we've never exactly recorded whole brain activity while shooting someone in the head. Which is good because would that be fucked up or what. Not that you'd be around to remember it, but you know. I'm a paranoid monkey.
 
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Took a look at it, it looks kinda fake to me plus no way a 357 can do that much damage, that's looks like the effects of a shotgun or high powered rifle.
Yeah honestly I was gonna say that has to be a rifle
 
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Yeah honestly I was gonna say that has to be a rifle
I saw the Budd Dwyer video and there was literally zero disfigurement and he used a 357.
 
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I've been having the same worries recently. Those last 30 seconds or so... they could be just awful. Or could it be a couple minutes? A shotgun would eliminate these worries, but it's less convenient. I have hope that the sheer percussive force applied directly to the brain would knock me out, but then there are stories about people walking around after a head shot.

The only practical measure I can come up with (besides buying a shotgun) is to take a large dose of aspirin an hour before hand to increase the bleeding and maybe shave off a few seconds.
 
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I saw the Budd Dwyer video and there was literally zero disfigurement and he used a 357.
I didn't watch the video but he possibly had disfigurement through the back of his head because entrance wounds can be small, but gun exit wounds are usually way bigger.

Or the disfigurement happened inside his brain & cranial cavity which wouldn't be visible if the bullet bounced around in there since it's protected by the skull
 
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I didn't watch the video but he possibly had disfigurement through the back of his head because entrance wounds can be small, but gun exit wounds are usually way bigger.

Or the disfigurement happened inside his brain & cranial cavity which wouldn't be visible if the bullet bounced around in there since it's protected by the skull
I was talking about facial disfigurement. He basically had none and 357 magnum is a large cartridge.
 
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Check this suicide helmet out.

Fifty years ago, a guy made this helmet with seven shotgun shells fiberglassed into it. The shells had nails touching their pins, attached to an arc welder as an anergy source, which was, in turn, plugged into the light circuit.

When his mom came in and turned on the light… bang.

I think this would eliminate your brain quite quickly and effectively.

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Goddamn what was dude going through this is absolutely overkill lmfao
Check this suicide helmet out.

Fifty years ago, a guy made this helmet with seven shotgun shells fiberglassed into it. The shells had nails touching their pins, attached to an arc welder as an anergy source, which was, in turn, plugged into the light circuit.

When his mom came in and turned on the light… bang.

I think this would eliminate your brain quite quickly and effectively.

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Check this suicide helmet out.

Fifty years ago, a guy made this helmet with seven shotgun shells fiberglassed into it. The shells had nails touching their pins, attached to an arc welder as an anergy source, which was, in turn, plugged into the light circuit.

When his mom came in and turned on the light… bang.

I think this would eliminate your brain quite quickly and effectively.

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Some people in the thread are saying this story is unconfirmed/made up/there's no source
yeah that's one reason it's instant lights out.

another the medulla is necessary for maintaining wakefulness . if gas bullet or pressure wave hits the medulla or the blood vesels going to the medulla it's instant unconsiousness. also many other different parts of the brain have to be working together and are needed for consciousness .


yes.

OP discusses hand guns.

this one on wpd . a woman used a 357 magnum handgun blew apart her head

warning the link shows graphic images: .


the rifle i would use has 6 times the power of a 357 magnum handgun ,shown below. will i feel pain with a bullet travelling 3000 feet per second completely exploding my head ? no


3000 feet per second is almost 1 kilometer per second. velocity kills instantly
muzzle-energy-of-various-firearm-cartridges.png



the rifle he uses here is not as powerful as the one i'll be using :




What, how is her face gone? :(
This is scarier than the other video that I saw. And some people are saying it seems fair because that gun is really small to be able to do all of that

Either way, I regret seeing this so much, I thought I was going to be able to cover the damage and just look at where the gun was to see the placement which you can't even tell because of the damage.
 
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The "brain" is not confined to the head. While the HQ for the nervous systems (plural, yep) are contained in the cranium, the brainstem extends down into the spine as the spinal cord, as we know. The thing is that it doesn't end there, either. The nerves themselves are all connected back to that central area (fig 5), similar to blood vessels in how capillaries branch out from arterioles which branch out from arteries (but without coming back together to form venules and veins) (fig 6). Now, I'm not claiming that conciousness is stored in the balls in the fingertips or the toes; you aren't an octopus whose limbs have their own minds, but it does help serve to reinforce that the brain is not just an easy to destroy node. There are neurons, brain cells, in your entire body. You have tastebuds in your stomach (and... a few other places). Chickens can run around with their head cut off for a while, man, and we are really not that different from chickens.
I 100% have the same thought process when it comes to any form of death. People die in stages, and what consciousness is, is difficult if not impossible to understand. A chicken runs around with its head cut off, true, but does that mean it KNOWS it's running around, or is that an impulse independent of actual 'understanding'? There's also a case where a chicken continued to live for a days if not weeks after its head was cut off because it retained a part of its brain stem.

But in my opinion what we're really worried about isn't necessarily 'consciousness' or the stages in which our bodies die, but rather the 'awareness' that we are dying. If the part of our brain that is destroyed is the part that lets us 'think' and therefore be capable of understanding that we exist, we'll never understand the pain we feel or what happens next.

Story time:

I went under anesthesia awhile back and it has fascinated me ever since. I was cut open, operated on, and etc, and I don't remember it. They counted down and all of a sudden I was gone; there's a big black space where existence should have been. And when I woke up, the only indication that time had passed and that my throat hurt, my body hurt, and I was dazed and confused. Had I never woken up, I wouldn't know I hadn't woken up.

Someone in my family had a heart attack while he was sleeping thanks to obstructions in his airways. He flat-lined and they brought him back, performed emergency surgery-- and he had no awareness whatsoever. He wasn't even anesthetized when the heart attack happened! He woke up confused, wondering what the hell had happened while he was out because to him, he'd gone to sleep and bam, now he's awake and he's got a hole in his throat.

In both cases, the brain was still fully functional. Our consciousness (and thus, ego) were disabled and thus we, in those moments, were not 'us'.

Tl;DR: The capacity to understand pain and experience the world around us is comprised of knowing we're alive in the first place. We need to be able to compare the past and the present (memory), we need to have an understanding of 'self', and our brains need to function well enough to transport sensory information to our brains. Ergo 'I think, therefore I am'. A person in a medically-induced coma can't tell you what happened while they were out (or what it felt like) because their capacity to think has been subdued. I would imagine in all circumstances, the biggest issue in receiving a gunshot wound to the head would come in the form of waking up in the hospital with half your face missing.

(Also shout out to this really informative post! It's really fascinating stuff.)
 
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I always thought that a bullet going through the brain causes instant loss of consciousness, but after asking perplexity, it seems I was wrong. Here's what perplexity said about all this:

when a bullet goes through the brain, how long til unconsciousness and can person remain conscious

Loss of consciousness from a gunshot to the brain can be essentially instantaneous, within a second or two, but in some cases people stay awake and responsive for seconds to minutes, and a minority can remain conscious or only briefly stunned. [1][2]

### Typical time to unconsciousness

- If the shot destroys or disrupts key "arousal" areas (brainstem, hypothalamus, deep midline structures), unconsciousness is immediate or within a second or two. [1]
- If the main effect is a sudden loss of blood flow (for example, massive vascular damage), the brain goes out when circulation stops, usually in about 5–10 seconds of zero blood flow, similar to what happens if the heart abruptly stops. [3]
- Irreversible brain damage from lack of oxygen typically starts after a few minutes of no effective circulation, even if the person is already unconscious. [3]

### Can someone remain conscious?

- Yes. In a large series of soldiers with severe penetrating brain wounds, over half had no or only momentary unconsciousness, meaning many were conscious at or shortly after the injury. [1]
- Survivors of penetrating head injuries often have focal damage: parts of the brain are badly injured but the systems that keep you awake and aware can remain intact, so people may talk, move, or even try to act purposefully immediately after being shot. [1][2]
- Whether someone stays conscious depends on bullet path, speed, and what structures are hit; lower-velocity penetrating injuries are more likely to leave enough brain function for survival and sometimes preserved consciousness. [4]

### Key factors that determine the outcome

- **Location:** Hits to brainstem, deep midline, or dominant hemisphere "wakefulness" circuits are far more likely to cause immediate coma or death than injuries confined to a single superficial lobe. [1][2]
- Velocity and disruption: High‑velocity bullets create a large temporary cavity and widespread destruction; low‑velocity objects (e.g., some bolt guns, tools) can penetrate with more limited damage and better odds of survival and potential awareness. [4]
- Secondary effects: Swelling, bleeding, and increased pressure in the skull over minutes to hours often worsen consciousness after an initially "awake" period. [5][2]

If you're asking this in the context of self‑harm or distress, immediate medical/psychological help is critical; let me know and I can give you resources or strategies tailored to where you live.

Citations:
[1] Consciousness and amnesia after penetrating head injury https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/3945388/
[2] Surgical Treatment https://www.aans.org/patients/conditions-treatments/gunshot-wound-head-trauma/
[3] After a gunshot wound to the heart, how much time surpasses until death occurs? Also is it simply because of lack of oxygen to the brain?
[4] After penetrating brain injuries, nearly half of patients ... https://medicalxpress.com/news/2022-09-penetrating-brain-injuries-patients-hospitals.html
[5] Traumatic Brain Injury (TBI) https://www.ninds.nih.gov/health-information/disorders/traumatic-brain-injury-tbi
[6] What is TBI? | Traumatic Brain Injury | IU School of Medicine https://medicine.iu.edu/expertise/traumatic-brain-injury/what-is-traumatic-brain-injury
[7] Is your brain able to make sense of the situation if one gets ...
[8] Early detection of consciousness in patients with acute severe ... https://academic.oup.com/brain/article/140/9/2399/3979437
[9] Does Brief Loss of Consciousness Affect Cognitive ... https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0887617799000487
[10] Forensic Pathology of Traumatic Brain Injury https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/10.1177/0300985815612155
 
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Ligottian

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What about those "gases" that some here claim go into the brain after a contact head shot and instantly turn the brain into mush?
 
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idontknowwhatiam

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Sep 10, 2025
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Check this suicide helmet out.

Fifty years ago, a guy made this helmet with seven shotgun shells fiberglassed into it. The shells had nails touching their pins, attached to an arc welder as an anergy source, which was, in turn, plugged into the light circuit.

When his mom came in and turned on the light… bang.

I think this would eliminate your brain quite quickly and effectively.

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Jfc why would he do that to his poor mom?
 
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fedup1982

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I assume those that come from the barrel of the gun. We have some gun experts here that might be of better help.
What gases? Can you explain?
I'm not a gun expert but know enough physics to answer this.

When the gunpowder in a bullet is ignited, it rapidly enters a chemical reaction where a proportion of the solid constituents of gun powder are turned into highly explosive, hot compressed gasses which then travel down the barrel and into the head cavity left by the bullet with a contact shot.

The same happens with any explosive other than nuclear. Solids are converted to hot gases, extremely rapidly, which expand in the shape of a shock wave (multiple waves actually, with different properties).

You can't normally have an explosion without those gases being produced. Those gasses are what accelerate the bullet, and those gasses are what make the bang
 
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Gosh, this is such a quality post. There is so much binary thinking when it comes to suicide - on both the "pro-choice" and "pro-life" sides - that I think betrays the nuance of what it is to be living / dying.

I love that you point out that our body is the composite of multiple connected subsystems that can continue to function when separated (just not the same way and not as sustainably). It is easy for us to take the integration of our body systems for granted, but this is not a given. As you mention, we can even take for granted that the system that sustains consciousness is a fundamentally integrated single system... but evidence suggests it is not.

I think you sum it up so beautifully here: "Death isn't a binary. Death isn't even a spectrum. Death is a blanket statement for an ineffable, context-dependant, and often subjective concept, and getting there is sometimes more of a slow meander than a simple hop over."

Suicide discourse focuses so heavily on the question of whether someone should or should not kill themselves. And I think its so important - whether you desire death for yourself or are trying to get someone else to keep "staying alive" - to recognize both (1) how heterogeneous experience is and (2) that you can only "die" while you are still, in some sense, "alive." By that, I guess I am saying that in order to find the death (i.e. experience of dying) that we want, we are always going to be stuck trudging through same pitfalls that make it hard to experience life the way we want to as well... which also means that in the process of searching for a peaceful method to impose death, we can also often identify ways to feel more comfortable extending the process of getting there. Its such a mindfuck.

Ultimately, I think its natural to focus on how difficult it is to "exist" when suicidal. But I think in many cases, its our capacity to experience (and our ability to impact others' experience) that we are really fighting/struggling with. For that reason, I think it is important to consider, even (or especially) at our most suicidal, the possibility that we cannot really escape experiencing our transformation from a state that is unambiguously alive to one that is unambiguously dead. So we should just be looking for ways to make transition and transformation a bit more gentle for ourselves and each other - rather than assuming there is an unambiguous state (i.e. choosing life or choosing death) that will bring about a perpetual state of peace.
 
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exsanguinate

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I also want to mention that you bring up a lot of points that help me understand why macroscopic mechanical deaths (strangulation, gunshot, etc) often seem intuitively violent to me (that are unrelated to their association with murder). I think it is because those methods tend to sever the parts of the body from critical life-support, meaning each severed sub-system will continue to function as normal until they each die individually, on their own.

I think I tend to associate "peacefulness" with methods that more uniformly/gradually impair the sustainability of the entire body, so that it is still at least experienced as a connected system until it reaches critical failure. Generally, this involves destroying central life support systems in a more fine grained way than macroscopic mechanical methods. So, using a chemical agent that can target the cells directly.

But even with a fine-grained chemical approach, if you want to reduce suffering, it still seems important to impair the ability for central systems to circulate nutrients, energy, and information signals across the entire network, rather than indiscriminately target each cell's viability, directly. For example, cyanide impairs the ability for each tissue cell to take up oxygen and seems to lead to a pretty horrific cascade of events, whereas SN impairs the ability of red-blood cells to circulate the oxygen which can also lead to some horrific events on the way, but less so than cyanide.

Ultimately, though, as you mention in your post, the best way to achieve even decay of the entire body on a molecular level is such intense sub-atomic irradiation that it would overwhelm the entire body before any individual cells are able to respond, like the "immediate" heat and ionizing radiation that would come from a nuclear bomb detonation (or perhaps the immediate entropy imposed by a Star Trek transporter malfunction).
 
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