I'm 32 years old and i'm a failure. If you weren't studious as a kid, it's over.
AI : Permanent Loss of Plasticity: If you do not use your brain during this period, you may miss the chance to build strong, fundamental pathways for skills like emotional regulation, complex logic, or social interaction. While the brain retains some plasticity throughout life, this 7–15 year window is a major, high-efficiency renovation period that cannot be fully replicated later.
Difficulty in Adult Thinking: Because the prefrontal cortex—the part of the brain used for planning, decision-making, and critical thinking—undergoes major restructuring and pruning during these years, low stimulation can lead to fewer connections in this area. This may result in long-term difficulty in executive functioning.
Parental-school negligence and to much use of TV, video games, internet, ruined my life (before it even began) . At the age of 22, i started to study maths and physics (I wanted to get into university). It was already to late. As a result of my hard work i earned a neuroticism. Wasted 10 years of my life and didn't achive anything. The only thing what i understood by studying, is that the majority of humans are degenerate animals (thats includes myself, my parents, my relatives). I don't see any alternatives in my life. Why should I continue living when I don't see any value in life ( low income physically demanding dirty job , no friends, no girlfriend, degenerate relatives). I don't want to spent my life regretting about the opportunities that i missed as a child by not studying, feeling sorry for myself all the time like some sniveling ass. Fuck it, if it's a natural order of things that some people are succesful (smart, intelligent, educated, elevated) and some others are not, let it be.
At the age of 22 i belived that it was more easy for me to become succesful (passing and finishing university, geting a prestigious job, devote myself to something meaningful) than to commit a suicide. I was wrong . Yes we choose our destiny, but unfortunately (or maybe not, i dont know) the years of our childhood are crucial and decisive for the future that is facing us, and sadly for me back then i didn't had the consciousness and the mindset that i procured later.
I will not gonna feel any regrets (in those last seconds). After all, we are just apes, primates without any consciousness or freedom of choice, products of our environment. The only thing that separates us from rest of animals is the ability to synthesize the new (Contributing to art, positive or humanitarian sciences). Most of us, aren't capable to create anything new, because of our lack of knowledge, education, laziness or simple incapability. Bloody hell, most folks can't even obtain a normal respected profession. So that makes the lives of the majority of us insignificant, unimportant, and in many causes harmful and poisonous for the nature and the society.
I joined your forum, so with your help, i could find a way (get an idea) how to totaly disapear from this world (far away from my degenarate relatives, my decadent country and this meaningless world) . I would like, to get some advices from the members of this forum, in which country (some undeveloped maybe) i could find a way to permanently end this process. A process that doesn't brings me any joy or happiness, only misery, and the worst of all, anger (i'm a neurotic as i told before). I'm sure that there are a lot of organizations that provide that kind of specific services. Ideally an inflatable boat, oars, a pistol, a bullet and a weight jacket (and the sea of course) whould solve all of my problems at once.
Thank you for reading. (My native language isn't english. Are were any greeks or russian-speakers here? )
AI : Permanent Loss of Plasticity: If you do not use your brain during this period, you may miss the chance to build strong, fundamental pathways for skills like emotional regulation, complex logic, or social interaction. While the brain retains some plasticity throughout life, this 7–15 year window is a major, high-efficiency renovation period that cannot be fully replicated later.
Difficulty in Adult Thinking: Because the prefrontal cortex—the part of the brain used for planning, decision-making, and critical thinking—undergoes major restructuring and pruning during these years, low stimulation can lead to fewer connections in this area. This may result in long-term difficulty in executive functioning.
Parental-school negligence and to much use of TV, video games, internet, ruined my life (before it even began) . At the age of 22, i started to study maths and physics (I wanted to get into university). It was already to late. As a result of my hard work i earned a neuroticism. Wasted 10 years of my life and didn't achive anything. The only thing what i understood by studying, is that the majority of humans are degenerate animals (thats includes myself, my parents, my relatives). I don't see any alternatives in my life. Why should I continue living when I don't see any value in life ( low income physically demanding dirty job , no friends, no girlfriend, degenerate relatives). I don't want to spent my life regretting about the opportunities that i missed as a child by not studying, feeling sorry for myself all the time like some sniveling ass. Fuck it, if it's a natural order of things that some people are succesful (smart, intelligent, educated, elevated) and some others are not, let it be.
At the age of 22 i belived that it was more easy for me to become succesful (passing and finishing university, geting a prestigious job, devote myself to something meaningful) than to commit a suicide. I was wrong . Yes we choose our destiny, but unfortunately (or maybe not, i dont know) the years of our childhood are crucial and decisive for the future that is facing us, and sadly for me back then i didn't had the consciousness and the mindset that i procured later.
I will not gonna feel any regrets (in those last seconds). After all, we are just apes, primates without any consciousness or freedom of choice, products of our environment. The only thing that separates us from rest of animals is the ability to synthesize the new (Contributing to art, positive or humanitarian sciences). Most of us, aren't capable to create anything new, because of our lack of knowledge, education, laziness or simple incapability. Bloody hell, most folks can't even obtain a normal respected profession. So that makes the lives of the majority of us insignificant, unimportant, and in many causes harmful and poisonous for the nature and the society.
I joined your forum, so with your help, i could find a way (get an idea) how to totaly disapear from this world (far away from my degenarate relatives, my decadent country and this meaningless world) . I would like, to get some advices from the members of this forum, in which country (some undeveloped maybe) i could find a way to permanently end this process. A process that doesn't brings me any joy or happiness, only misery, and the worst of all, anger (i'm a neurotic as i told before). I'm sure that there are a lot of organizations that provide that kind of specific services. Ideally an inflatable boat, oars, a pistol, a bullet and a weight jacket (and the sea of course) whould solve all of my problems at once.
Thank you for reading. (My native language isn't english. Are were any greeks or russian-speakers here? )
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