buing rope today

[MapleS]

My (new) therapist told me that I cry to loud and bother people by doing that
It made me hard to cry again )
and actually it bothered only her cause SHE MADE A PROMISE THAT IN HER OFFICE IT WILL NOT BE LOUD!
she could have told it thouh

Anyway I'm just exhausted and in pain
Medication and therapy is not working
I know my friend will blame himself (we talked about it) but I cant do it anymore.... And I know he will ruin himself
BUT I CAN'T
ecstasy therapy could actually help but IT'S FUCKING ILLEGAL
and anything else is just... too much effort and too much pain

I'm really bad with any pain and discomfort. Any ways to cope with it?

I'm getting a rope today (again)

 

[Claymore7274]

Shit, that's a terrible therapist, i can't believe the things some professionals can say to an already ill person, good luck with that man

 

[MapleS]

Shit, that's a terrible therapist, i can't believe the things some professionals can say to an already ill person, good luck with that man

honestly it's the reason I will ctb
I will not go through hell of trauma+being unable to cry ever again

 

[Claymore7274]

honestly it's the reason I will ctb
I will not go through hell of trauma+being unable to cry ever again

Oh yeah it sucks when you can't cry, i have awful trauma cause of all the "men don't cry" bullshit to the point where i can't do fuckshit when i'm down, no catharsis, just a dreadful terrible feeling in my gut all day long.

i'm going by the rope too, this weekend if possible

 

[MapleS]

i'm going by the rope too, this weekend if possible

I will next week
Hope you will find peace

 

[Claymore7274]

I will next week
Hope you will find peace

You too, good luck