Brain damage issue

[Scaredycat]

Im simulating ligature strangulation to yknow, dip my toes in water to see how it feels.

have to fucking squeeze my neck HARD with clothes in order to pressure the carotid artery its fun, but I never pushed it beyond the point of fainting

I didnt feel it pleasurable, sucks i will have to endure the whole process without feeling nothing but fear and dizziness.

but i heard you only feel pleasurable when you push hard to verge of fainting. I never did this because my brain has to be intact incase I want to find another method.

I heard the brain gets damaged after 6+ seconds of bloodflow cutoff, so it should be fine to strangle myself until i faint to yknow, try and see if i can endure the whole process. thoughts?

 

[FF777]

i have permanent and severe brain damage from a stroke i stupidly caused my self to have in 2020.. it doesn't take very long for your brain to start getting damaged from lack of oxygen (it gets oxygen from blood).. this brain damage has been the worst thing that has ever happened in my life, and a few days ago i tried to CTB (was going to use H2S method) but my SI (survival instinct) kicked in REALLY HARD and i was so terrified that i cancelled every thing and i'm going to try to continue living for several more years even though my life blows because of this brain damage still.. so yeah you do NOT want brain damage..