Venting bpd

[kelimackie]

yeah yeah another thread about BPD, I'm just so fucking tired of the flip floping

I want to kill myself, but then I don't want, and then I do, but then I want to wait 2 years, but then I say to hell with it, and then again

god damnit just do it already, it's so boring, I'm tired of this

I have everything I need, I just need to fast for 12h and then I can go, literally anywhere, do it on a fucking subway bathroom, just fucking do it

I'm clearly psychotic or disassociating ughhhh

 

[SleepySept]

I feel you, yesterday made me realize I was going through a psychotic episode. I really hate looking crazy too and the worst part is I can't tell if I am or not.

 

[kelimackie]

I feel you, yesterday made me realize I was going through a psychotic episode. I really hate looking crazy too and the worst part is I can't tell if I am or not.

it's really hard to distinguish what it's my real and what is just my mind messing with me, I just want to have some money to buy some stuff and then go

 

[gvmi]

yeah yeah another thread about BPD, I'm just so fucking tired of the flip floping

I want to kill myself, but then I don't want, and then I do, but then I want to wait 2 years, but then I say to hell with it, and then again

god damnit just do it already, it's so boring, I'm tired of this

I have everything I need, I just need to fast for 12h and then I can go, literally anywhere, do it on a fucking subway bathroom, just fucking do it

I'm clearly psychotic or disassociating ughhhh

I feel you, BPD fucking sucks. I'm so sorry

 

[JKFleck]

HAHAHAHAHAHA
"Why do you sound so selfish and lie so much?"
"It's because he told me I'm a liar so I sthought I'm a liar too and started lying all the time to fit the self-image he gave me"
"Why are you so manipulative??"
"Because he told me I'm manipulative"

Unstable self image go BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Used to have a very supportive friend but then he abandoned me as a reward for getting better now I wanna kms lmfao