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ImTelling
Sad Doggo
- May 27, 2024
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What's happening, forum?
I've recently been experiencing the most intense 'splitting' in my life. For those who don't know, one of the symptoms of BPD is that you start thinking and feeling in black and white, especially with relationships. For example, someone with BPD could see their partner is perfect in every way and suddenly hate them and want nothing to do with them.
After what happened at work almost everyone I know has shown their immense disappointment in me. Even those who sugar coat it by saying "You're human, you fuck up, you can work past it" are put into this "hate" category in my brain. It feels like everyone is against me. My own mother told me to leave her alone in a cold text at 6am. I only have two people in my life right now who I consider as compassionate to my situation. Everyone else hates my guts.
It's one of the main reasons I wanna CTB. I'm the problem, I'm like a rabid animal that needs to be put down. I'm full of hatred. I feel so distant from love.
I've recently been experiencing the most intense 'splitting' in my life. For those who don't know, one of the symptoms of BPD is that you start thinking and feeling in black and white, especially with relationships. For example, someone with BPD could see their partner is perfect in every way and suddenly hate them and want nothing to do with them.
After what happened at work almost everyone I know has shown their immense disappointment in me. Even those who sugar coat it by saying "You're human, you fuck up, you can work past it" are put into this "hate" category in my brain. It feels like everyone is against me. My own mother told me to leave her alone in a cold text at 6am. I only have two people in my life right now who I consider as compassionate to my situation. Everyone else hates my guts.
It's one of the main reasons I wanna CTB. I'm the problem, I'm like a rabid animal that needs to be put down. I'm full of hatred. I feel so distant from love.