claraisnotcarol
from dust to dust
- Oct 4, 2023
- 111
hey my fellow borderlines, or other curious people or sadly mental disordered diagnosed.
I have been going through a particular struggle recently. You see, my ex and I, broke up a couple years ago, even though our relationship is still very toxic, even if I have a boyfriend now.
She ended up blocking me like two months ago because she said she was still in love with me. Rationally, of course I understand that.
But this two months have been hell. The abandonment I ve been feeling have been eating me alive, relapsing in sh, trying to call her, do whatever it takes to get her attention, even if it's getting myself impatient. My sick mind really really wanna hurt her but I really love her, even though is contradicting.
I just wanted to take this of my chest.
I have been going through a particular struggle recently. You see, my ex and I, broke up a couple years ago, even though our relationship is still very toxic, even if I have a boyfriend now.
She ended up blocking me like two months ago because she said she was still in love with me. Rationally, of course I understand that.
But this two months have been hell. The abandonment I ve been feeling have been eating me alive, relapsing in sh, trying to call her, do whatever it takes to get her attention, even if it's getting myself impatient. My sick mind really really wanna hurt her but I really love her, even though is contradicting.
I just wanted to take this of my chest.