Games Boys vs girls counting game

[evanescent_eva]

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[Namelesa Graves]

595

I meant treasure hunting on an island, isnt that what pirates do?

597

no they look for ASS

 

[evanescent_eva]

594

 

[Namelesa Graves]

593 I am sacred for a mental health appointment thats coming soon

 

[evanescent_eva]

592 who's the appointment with? what kind of therapy do they do?

 

[Namelesa Graves]

591 its a "preparing for therapy appointment" finally after a long waiting. Only took them having social services to be called. I just worried its going to be a pointless waste of my time like most things I have been through tho there might be the possibility of a personality disorder diagnosis or them thinking I have one as they gave me info about it with the email I got for the appointment.

 

[Dark Moon]

595

no they look for ASS

Can't tell if you're sarcastic

592

 

[Namelesa Graves]

Can't tell if you're sarcastic

592

mmm I would say I am being half joking, half not

591

 

[evanescent_eva]

590 valid. I'm sorry you had to get social services involved. I can relate to worrying that therapy is going to be a pointless waste of time. I'm potentially starting a partial hospitalization program in a week, and I worry that's going to be a waste of time too. Are you gonna ask for dialectical behavioral therapy? I hear it's the gold standard for a lot of personality disorders. I'm sorry you're so nervous about the whole thing. Therapy can be scary sometimes.

 

[Namelesa Graves]

590 valid. I'm sorry you had to get social services involved. I can relate to worrying that therapy is going to be a pointless waste of time. I'm potentially starting a partial hospitalization program in a week, and I worry that's going to be a waste of time too. Are you gonna ask for dialectical behavioral therapy? I hear it's the gold standard for a lot of personality disorders. I'm sorry you're so nervous about the whole thing. Therapy can be scary sometimes.

DBT probably, especially as previously they suspected BPD and BPD was the only personality disorders named on the info page

589

 

[evanescent_eva]

588 yeah I think I'm going to be getting a lot of DBT for my BPD too. I hope it goes well for you. And you can tell them to kiss your pirate ASS if they treat you poorly :3

588

 

[Namelesa Graves]

hehehehehe thank you :3

587

 

[evanescent_eva]

586 that was an interesting number you just counted there :3

 

[Namelesa Graves]

I obviously wasn't paying attention hehehe. God its so tiring existing

585

 

[evanescent_eva]

I hate existing so much. Can we just bash on existing for a bit? It's such a painful way to be, and no one fucking asked for it.

584

 

[Namelesa Graves]

583 yea!

 

[evanescent_eva]

582 and it's so hard to escape from! Lord knows I've tried my best, but it just sticks to you like glue. And the fatigue, goddam the fatigue. I just wish I could sleep forever.

 

[Namelesa Graves]

581 yep me too. I just feel like a lot of the time I just feel empty or too much pain and exhaustion. I am tired of this long ass life to wait for an ending. This is a game with so much filler that it puts games like Eden Ring to shame.

 

[evanescent_eva]

580 and I'm so sick of hurting people. I hate that I was born as a person who just seems destined to hurt everyone I talk to. And I hate that I seem to need to be able to talk to people all the same, so I just end up in this never-ending cycle of talk to someone, hurt them, and get rejected by them over and over again. I want my ending too.

As an aside, I never did play Elden Ring, just the first three Dark Souls game. Was it any good, or filled with too much filler?

 

[Namelesa Graves]

579 yep I am sick of being this being that desires connection and love when I am so fragile and emotional that I somehow keep making new mistakes with every person I try to talk to.

This is a controversial opinion but I think Elden Ring is the worst souls-like game from has made due it being too big and so much reuse of assets causing so much repetition. Honestly I feel like its made my depression worse and see more of the repetition in life.

 

[evanescent_eva]

578 it's kind of stunning how easy it is to make new mistakes with each new person. You would think that life would get bored eventually and just reuse the mistakes so you could learn, but no, there is no learning. Or the learning is useless. Only pain.

Oh that's so discouraging to hear. I hadn't played it because my chronic fatigue gets flared when I play from games now, but I was thinking of starting a new game because I need to dissociate as badly as I need to not feel fatigue. But if it's just a repetitive slog that makes it even easier to see the repetitive nature of life, then that's a hard pass from me.

 

[Namelesa Graves]

Yep.... It gets harder to fight of the self-hatred and guilt as time goes on form the more and more mistakes I do.

Yea Elden Ring kinda did that to me. Honestly has changed my whole perspective on games and cus I now I notice more similarities between games or sections in them.

577

 

[evanescent_eva]

I just want to curl up in a ball and disappear. Why isn't that an option. I would give anything for that to be an option. Instead it's like you say: the self-hatred and guilt become all consuming and follow me everywhere I go. It's at the point where I feel like I need to protect people from myself, which is a horrible way to look at oneself. But it's true.

Oh that's so interesting.

576

 

[Namelesa Graves]

575 yea..... :<

 

[Redacted24]

Hi, sorry I got a call from one of the folks that was fired Friday.

It's amazing they all call me to talk...me the suicidal domestic victim is a resource!
576

 

[Namelesa Graves]

Hi, sorry I got a call from one of the folks that was fired Friday.

It's amazing they all call me to talk...me the suicidal domestic victim is a resource!
576

its okie ^^

well sadly the irony is that often people who suffered most, can be the kindest.

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[evanescent_eva]

574

And @Redacted24 they probably call you because of your experience and your humor and your care :3

 

[Redacted24]

But I think I'll take a break and be a veg

Good night ladies, I enjoy our time together.
Keep being amazing!
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[evanescent_eva]

Good night to you too! And I'm not amazing, not even a little, but I'm glad you think so.

575

 

[Namelesa Graves]

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