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[Namelesa]

898 I often felt really excited when I got to talk with him or see one of his posts. I really looked up to him

 

[boddibo]

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[Namelesa]

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[boddibo]

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bloody hell I was so out of touch with anything that i didn't know ijustwishtodie ctb

 

[Namelesa]

898 maybe I am just an obsessive fangirl. I often get attached and care about someone very quickly

 

[boddibo]

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i tend not to be like that on this website, that's why i don't often interact

 

[Namelesa]

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bloody hell I was so out of touch with anything that i didn't know ijustwishtodie ctb

Totally understandable to not know about it if you don't interact with the suicide section much. I only really see you here so I assume you don't check that section often

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[boddibo]

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i used to check the suicide section every single day before feeling like it brings me nothing, yeah
but i sometimes check the profiles of the people that posts here just in case

 

[Namelesa]

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[NoPoint2Life]

898 maybe I am just an obsessive fangirl. I often get attached and care about someone very quickly

Thinking about it more, as someone who had just a few friends in school and never any guy friends I think that contributed because yes, I could get obsessive and fan girlish too online.
I think being that you are even more isolated due to your circumstances, it's probably even easier for you to be like that897

 

[Namelesa]

Thinking about it more, as someone who had just a few friends in school and never any guy friends I think that contributed because yes, I could get obsessive and fan girlish too online.
I think being that you are even more isolated due to your circumstances, it's probably even easier for you to be like that897

896 I was like this always honestly, I often stick to having one human connection and being obsessed about that person. I think its partially autism as I begin to have a hyper-fixation on the person

 

[boddibo]

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[Namelesa]

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[NoPoint2Life]

What about your best friend? You sounded like you are super close with him. Are you guys still keeping in contact or are you still on your break?
If you were to suddenly get Un-trapped and met someone else do you think you would not be interested in him as much?
I definitely don't know anything about autism and romantic feelings, but it sounds like it could very well be the case with ijwtd

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[GlassMoon]

I don't really know what its like talking about this stuff in school as I hardly expressed those kinds of emotions back then

Me too... kind of sad now that I missed out on that...

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[Namelesa]

What about your best friend? You sounded like you are super close with him. Are you guys still keeping in contact or are you still on your break?
If you were to suddenly get Un-trapped and someone else do you think you would not be interested in him as much?
I definitely don't know anything about autism and romantic feelings, but it sounds like it could very well be the case with ijwtd

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I have kinda slight stopping caring as much for him now as we rarely talk now. He messages occasionally but it isn't much. I know its not cus of me being disliked by him and just that his mum hates me but I feel like I have lost him now. We also did a call sometime recentluish? but I kinda broke down in not being able to talk with him more and it was hard for me to even speak but I know he can't handle that well as I am often the one supporting him and not him supporting me. I am really worried that I have to start from scratch and find another person to rely on.

I feel like my romantic feelings are very increased by autism as it can make you obsessive about your interests so it can apply to people as well

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[boddibo]

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[NoPoint2Life]

Me too... kind of sad now that I missed out on that...

896

Don't be sad. With me and my best friend in hs it was like I was her sidekick. We both liked the same guy at one point, but even though he liked me first it was as if once he realized he could have the girl with blonde hair and blue eyes that she was the better choice. We were all still friends though.
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[Namelesa]

Me too... kind of sad now that I missed out on that...

896

I don't really see it as sad for me as I hated school and don't want to care about anything associated with it

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[boddibo]

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[Namelesa]

Don't be sad. With me and my best friend in hs it was like I was her sidekick. We both liked the same guy at one point, but even though he liked me first it was as if once he realized he could have the girl with blonde hair and blue eyes that she was the better choice. We were all still friends though.
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of course they preferred blonde hair. To me very yellowish blonde hair is the least attractive hair colour to me but people are allowed to like whatever they want

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[boddibo]

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[Namelesa]

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[boddibo]

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[Namelesa]

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[boddibo]

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[Namelesa]

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[NoPoint2Life]

I have kinda slight stopping caring as much for him now as we rarely talk now. He messages occasionally but it isn't much. I know its not cus of me being disliked by him and just that his mum hates me but I feel like I have lost him now. We also did a call sometime recentluish? but I kinda broke down in not being able to talk with him more and it was hard for me to even speak but I know he can't handle that well as I am often the one supporting him and not him supporting me. I am really worried that I have to start from scratch and find another person to rely on.

I feel like my romantic feelings are very increased by autism as it can make you obsessive about your interests so it can apply to people as well

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That must be really difficult. I know he was the one that could change your life for the positive if you ever got untrapped.
Maybe it's easier in a way though? If you broke down that definitely doesn't sound easy, but if you are now more accepting of the space between you two it's good that you're not feeling as obsessive. Starting from scratch sounds like a nightmare. Especially when you are unable to with your current situation. I'm sorry for your suffering.

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