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I have kinda slight stopping caring as much for him now as we rarely talk now. He messages occasionally but it isn't much. I know its not cus of me being disliked by him and just that his mum hates me but I feel like I have lost him now. We also did a call sometime recentluish? but I kinda broke down in not being able to talk with him more and it was hard for me to even speak but I know he can't handle that well as I am often the one supporting him and not him supporting me. I am really worried that I have to start from scratch and find another person to rely on.

I feel like my romantic feelings are very increased by autism as it can make you obsessive about your interests so it can apply to people as well

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That must be really difficult. I know he was the one that could change your life for the positive if you ever got untrapped.
Maybe it's easier in a way though? If you broke down that definitely doesn't sound easy, but if you are now more accepting of the space between you two it's good that you're not feeling as obsessive. Starting from scratch sounds like a nightmare. Especially when you are unable to with your current situation. I'm sorry for your suffering.

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That must be really difficult. I know he was the one that could change your life for the positive if you ever got untrapped.
Maybe it's easier in a way though? If you broke down that definitely doesn't sound easy, but if you are now more accepting of the space between you two it's good that you're not feeling as obsessive. Starting from scratch sounds like a nightmare. Especially when you are unable to with your current situation. I'm sorry for your suffering.

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892 I just feel so lost now. I don't know how else I am supposed to get better except relying on someone. I felt like he wasn't going to abandon me as we have known each other for 2 years now and despite the harm we have done to do each other in our relationship, we still cared for each other deeply and wanted to stick around for the other person. However I guess my transgressions has caught up to me now as the mum hates me now and he can't regularly talk to me now. I worried about trying to find a new person now as I have to start the process of being scared of abandonment again.

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@Namelesa I know we always joke here that this thread can turn into a conversation about anything. But I keep wondering in the back of my mind if ijwtd as the creator would be horrified at this type of long conversation lol. And I don't mean it in reference to anything having to do with you and him specifically. I just feel like we have certainly now covered every topic you can here.
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@Namelesa I know we always joke here that this thread can turn into a conversation about anything. But I keep wondering in the back of my mind if ijwtd as the creator would be horrified at this type of long conversation lol. And I don't mean it in reference to anything having to do with you and him specifically. I just feel like we have certainly now covered every topic you can here.
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I don't think he would be horrified by it as we have had long conversations here before, even with him here so we won't mind that. He would probably just be confused and not being able to properly understand what I am feeling as he seemed to be aromantic but he wouldn't judge it as he knows people can experience things differently. Maybe be flattered by how much I value him.

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892 I just feel so lost now. I don't know how else I am supposed to get better except relying on someone. I felt like he wasn't going to abandon me as we have known each other for 2 years now and despite the harm we have done to do each other in our relationship, we still cared for each other deeply and wanted to stick around for the other person. However I guess my transgressions has caught up to me now as the mum hates me now and he can't regularly talk to me now. I worried about trying to find a new person now as I have to start the process of being scared of abandonment again.

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I wish I had some kind of advice, but I suck at giving advice.
It sounds scary.
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I don't think he would be horrified by it as we have had long conversations here before, even with him here so we won't mind that. He would probably just be confused and not being able to properly understand what I am feeling as he seemed to be aromantic but he wouldn't judge it as he knows people can experience things differently. Maybe be flattered by how much I value him.

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Yeah, confused sounds about right for him I guess
If he was capable of feeling flattery, I'm sure he would. I mean that sincerely not in a sarcastic way.
Just show to go how he made a big impression here. I actually remember him saying once he felt like an outcast among outcasts. I think more people related to him than he realized.

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Yeah, confused sounds about right for him I guess
If he was capable of feeling flattery, I'm sure he would. I mean that sincerely not in a sarcastic way.
Just show to go how he made a big impression here. I actually remember him saying once he felt like an outcast among outcasts. I think more people related to him than he realized.

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I guess the correct word to use here is that he would feel appreciated. Thats what he said when I made a drawing just for him.

I said about him just feeling confused but not judgement cus of what he said here
I don't understand it either but who am I to say that they are in the wrong considering how I don't know what's going on inside their head? Personally, a relationship (or lack thereof) wouldn't make me suicidal but everybody reacts to the same thing differently. I don't understand it but, then again, it isn't meant to be understood considering how it's impossible to fully know what somebody else is going through. My reasons to ctb aren't due to loneliness or lack of relationships or anything like that but rather due to existence as a whole
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I guess the correct word to use here is that he would feel appreciated. Thats what he said when I made a drawing just for him.

I said about him just feeling confused but not judgement cus of what he said here

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That was nice of you. I'm sure he did feel appreciated. Especially as time went by, I almost sensed that he was mellowing a tiny bit, not in his views about life or ctb, but just he seemed to be forming more connections with people, and in casual conversation, joking wise, and more understanding of other ways of thinking like he says in that quote. I think he learned a lot here and he was already incredibly smart to begin with!
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Like I said, he had a big impact on me too. Partly because it was like I was almost jealous that he had figured it all out so young and had no illusions about the future.
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OK I've got to get going. Good luck fending off the guys. I think our conversation might actually have scared them away!
 
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