thank you! take care (at work or at home, not sure where you're at currently)
i HATE this limbo. so much. sorry you have to deal with that. what do you consider recovery? i think if you were to "recover" (as in, very tentatively tapping into it, both to get your family off of your back and see if it's of any help), you could start getting a lot of your privileges back... which could help you in the long run no matter what you choose
I consider recovery just being able to manage life and not be depressed most of the time and have some semblance of not wanting to die all the time. I would want to get more freedom or escape from my family but that's hard to do when I am so emotional and expressive which causes me to not be able to keep my suicidalness to myself.
