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The Morningstar

The Morningstar

Be absolute. Be yourself, until you bleed.
May 4, 2025
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Sorry to hear that.
Been better, but not too bad. Lonely here, too. And I've lost a lot of my old interests, but luckily not all. It's just really hard to care about them, though.
I suppose my biggest concern is this feeling of anxiety that is just on the verge of an attack, but not quite. And I don't really know why.
I have a guess, and if I'm right, it will be a long time before it goes away...

 
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evanescent_eva

evanescent_eva

valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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Sorry to hear you've been better. What are some of the interests you still have? And if you wanna talk about your guess, I'd be happy to listen, but no pressure of course!
 
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Grog

Grog

Be good to yourself.
Jun 3, 2025
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I'm really happy to see you again Eva! 🙂

Neon Genesis Evangelion Rei GIF
 
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
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GlassMoon

GlassMoon

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Nov 18, 2024
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212 time for bed but still not feeling ready
 
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star.trip

star.trip

Student
Oct 6, 2024
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Good evening @Namelesa @Dark Moon. Im very happy to share this time before going to sleep with you.
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
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star.trip

star.trip

Student
Oct 6, 2024
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How are you @Namelesa ?

tonight (at least it's night for me) i'm missing eva @evanescent_eva
 
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star.trip

star.trip

Student
Oct 6, 2024
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I was missing you, thank goodness you're here. How are you ? @evanescent_eva

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evanescent_eva

evanescent_eva

valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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I was missing you, thank goodness you're here. How are you ? @evanescent_eva

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Hi star.trip; I'm doing poorly, and I explain why in the last post on the previous page :<

How are you?
 
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CTB set me free

CTB set me free

Chief Commander Cheesy Beef Burrito Supreme
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Do you have ME/CFS Eva?
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
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How are you @Namelesa ?

tonight (at least it's night for me) i'm missing eva @evanescent_eva
I feel okayish at moment cus with sister but been mostly feeling empty now a days

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CTB set me free

CTB set me free

Chief Commander Cheesy Beef Burrito Supreme
Jul 16, 2025
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I do, and it's partly responsible for ruining my life. What prompted you to ask?
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I saw your earlier post where you said you are bedbound. I have ME/CFS too which is why I want to CTB. I've had it for about 5 and half years which most of it has been hell to get through. I tried to CTB almost 2 years ago when I downed somewhere between 200-300 non-enteric coated aspirin and I tried to wait about 8 hours before calling EMS so that they wouldn't be able to save me and I didn't want my family to find my body. I only lasted about 4-5 hours before calling EMS since I was so weak that I crawled to the phone, I figured with ME/CFS I would be weak enough to die by the time they got to me. They gave me a 50/50 chance of survival and unfortunately I'm still here. If I hadn't cared about my family finding me, I could have caught that bus.
 
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