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evanescent_eva

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valkyrie
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342 I think my whole system was rattled by my ctb attempt, and everyone's just taking some time to get readjusted to my body. Or maybe my worsening panic disorder has been sort of drowning out their voices? Or maybe they're all mad at me for trying to kill myself because they might die too. I'm really not sure. I wish I knew how to talk to them better :(
 
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341 :< I hope they readjust soon. Yea something like that would effect them a lot. did they know you were going to do try attempt on that day?
 
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valkyrie
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340 I told them multiple times, and asked if they wanted to talk about it with me. They never did. I have a weird system. One alter only speaks in music, and the other doesn't really talk to me unless they're being abusive towards me. I keep trying to make friends with both of them, but it's been a real challenge.
 
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339, mmmm sorry you are stuck with a meanie always with you :< just wondering does the music altar trigger you as you mentioned about music being a trigger for you?
 
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valkyrie
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338 yep the music alter almost always triggers me, but it's not their fault. It's just how they communicate. It does usually mean a panic attack and intense derealization/delusions for me though :<
 
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337 god that's terrible you are just stuck with them even if it isn't their fault. Probably more difficult for them too with it being harder to communicate to you.
 
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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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336 I would agree it's not the easiest condition to navigate, but I try to refrain from using words like "terrible" and "stuck" because my alters have feelings too (I think). And I'd agree that it's probably really challenging for them too to be stuck in such a defective body with such a defective personality at the front all the time. Sigh....

I'm impressed you remembered the bit about music being triggering for me though. I don't even remember saying it!
 
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Namelesa is truly wonderful.
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336 I would agree it's not the easiest condition to navigate, but I try to refrain from using words like "terrible" and "stuck" because my alters have feelings too (I think). And I'd agree that it's probably really challenging for them too to be stuck in such a defective body with such a defective personality at the front all the time. Sigh....

I'm impressed you remembered the bit about music being triggering for me though. I don't even remember saying it!
oh sorry I won't use those words then. yea I understand that with that they are also people. just I want to say how difficult it is to be a system and how you didn't really have a choice in it.

yea I remembered from when you said that when someone shared music in here.

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maybe...

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valkyrie
May 11, 2025
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oh sorry I won't use those words then. yea I understand that with that they are also people. just I want to say how difficult it is to be a system and how you didn't really have a choice in it.

yea I remembered from when you said that when someone shared music in here.
Thanks, I appreciate the sentiment <3

And OH that's RIGHT, I remember now! Thank you for reminding me :3

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Gotta do chores now.
 
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Have fun with your choooooores
 
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