Venting Boyfriend just admitted to me he watch’s csem

[M Berry M]

I don't know what the fuck to do I love this man more then fucking anything I was finally starting to feel like I didn't want to we are supposed to move in together we're supposed to get married one day

He's my first non abusive partner and he admitted to me he's looked at csem online and that he's gotten off to it before I want to die I love him but I don't think I can handle this I love him more then the world

I asked him when the last time he did it was he said WEEKS ago I thought maybe it was years ago but only weeks!!!


I have no where else to post this I want to fucking vomit

He knows I have survived constant csa my entire childhood

I feel like this has to be a bad dream it feels so surreal I want to wake up…

I want to kill myself again everything was finally starting to be ok for the first time in my life and I feel everything crashing down

 

[enditplz]

That's disgusting, I'm so sorry you're going through this. The only reason he told you is to gauge your reaction before he tries to escalate it further or even reveal worse things that he's done. If he felt shame he'd keep it to himself and try to avoid that type of material. This is a sick bastard and this relationship will turn abusive.

 

[Mooncry]

That's fucking disgusting and I'd drop his ass in a heartbeat. Not even sorry, anyone who gets off to kids—especially someone who ADMITS to it like they're proud—is repulsive. I wouldn't be shocked if he's in possession of full-on CP too. Someone needs to check his hard drive.

I'm sorry for you, but I really hope you'll leave him.

 

[SchizoGymnast]

Notify authorities. Whatever good you see in them is likely a front anyway.

 

[wham311]

I don't know what the fuck to do I love this man more then fucking anything I was finally starting to feel like I didn't want to we are supposed to move in together we're supposed to get married one day

He's my first non abusive partner and he admitted to me he's looked at csem online and that he's gotten off to it before I want to die I love him but I don't think I can handle this I love him more then the world

I asked him when the last time he did it was he said WEEKS ago I thought maybe it was years ago but only weeks!!!


I have no where else to post this I want to fucking vomit

He knows I have survived constant csa my entire childhood

I feel like this has to be a bad dream it feels so surreal I want to wake up…

I want to kill myself again everything was finally starting to be ok for the first time in my life and I feel everything crashing down

Tell him to cut that shit off NOW before he ruins everyone's lives.

 

[wait.what]

I don't know exactly what CSEM stands for, but I get that it's some variation on predatory practices involving kids. I won't get more specific, partly because I don't think I need to, and partly because we don't need to dangle any more keyword bait above NYT journalists, causing them to hallucinate that they work at "The Sun."

Anyhow—please protect yourself and any kids in your life, and cut this fellow out now. You may or may not already have cp on your devices. Has he ever used your phone, tablet, computer, etc? Even if he never deliberately downloaded illegal images, they could still be in your cache, and you could be held responsible. Please don't clear out the cache & imagine the images are gone. They're not.

Honestly, at this point, I'd look into finding a digital security professional.

All of that is bad enough—imagine if you ever had kids with this dude. Better to know now.

 

[decayofangels]

That's extremely horrible, you need to leave him now. That is a terrible man, and you deserve someone who doesn't get off to children. I know you said you loved him, but this goes beyond your love for him. Leave him and cut him off immediately.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

I don't know exactly what CSEM stands for, but I get that it's some variation on predatory practices involving kids. I won't get more specific, pa

Child sexual exploitation material, another term for CP.

 

[oneeyed]

I can usually understand stuff from construction, to engineering principles, to space exploration. But never in a million years could I ever understand why people enjoy cp. I can't even type it out! I don't know what to say to comfort you but I don't think this relationship will be healthy. If he expresses regret, maybe he can get physiological help. If not, it will just spiral and hopefully the authorities will deal with him before he does something even worse.

I'm sorry. You must be so conflicted.

 

[bankai]

well the relationship is done. you don't have a future with this guy. can't have kids with him either and God help the person that does.


I'm sorry for your pain though.

 

[FoxSauce]

That is unacceptable if this person watches this kind of content and enjoys it god know what will happen.

Ofc maybe you should tell him how this makes you feel? Idk im just saying. But if he doesn't care or is disguising the whole thing. Drop his ass
Its illegal!

I'm sorry you had to go through that must've felt like a slap to the face

My deepests sympathies for you , virtual tight hugs for you