Venting Both of my parents are going to die alone.

[worthless123]

I am an only child and my parents divorced when I was little. I have one cousin on my dad's side but they aren't really that close. My mom has two sisters but they don't share the best relationship either. Neither of my parents really have any close friends or social lives to speak of. After I ctb they will both be left sad and alone in this miserable world, nobody to keep them company. They will likely spend every night reminiscing on how their son was a total failure, growing older and older with nobody to take care of them.

They truly don't deserve that ending after how hard they tried with me, yet it's going to happen anyway because life has left me no choice but to ctb. I have no friends, no marketable skills, nothing to live for and no will to live. I can't even force myself to go outside anymore. Either way my parents are going to be heartbroken, but I know my life has to end now before it gets infinitely worse. I just wish things could've gone differently.

 

[lonesomedefeat]

Also an only child so I relate to alot of what you said. My parents, and especially my mother does not have that much of a social life either because they have to move every couple of years because of their jobs.

And yeah, that pain will most likely stay with them for the rest of their lives, there's no denying nor preventing that if you choose to CTB. Despite that, the decision to CTB is yours and yours only. The pain and sorrow it causes to others cannot really be prevented, only accepted. I too wish that things could have gone differently...

I wish you all the best! Hope it works out for you ️