I've made up my find recently on how I plan to go but want to come to the best conclusion on what I leave behind. Currently me, mid 20s guy, lives at home with one parent and one younger sibling. I am the only one in the household who has a job and spend a decent portion of bills and whatnot. Our parent contributes as well of course but they both received SS due to disabilities. I go and it makes things harder to stay afloat for them. I will leave them what I can my checking account, savings and what other money i can scrounge up but it will be no more than around 2k. I accept the emotional burden my act will cause but i don't want to add anything else. Unfortunately our parent has health issues like anxiety that have been worsening due to health issues and menopause. My younger sibling is on the spectrum and has routines they adhere to.
My chosen method will be pretty messy. Nothing will be done within the household. I will find a park or the like, call first responders, then it's over. I will leave a note for the responders detailing who i am including my ID and to not let family see the mess. Hopefully it will be honored.
That brings me to my second anchor, which is really just a fear of messing up. I've chosen 12 gauge with hollow tip rifled slugs to maximize the chance of success.
The third anchor is my father who has been in prison since i was in single digits. I am his only son. While contact is limited he was diagnosed with schizophrenia and i start to wonder if he finds out his only son is gone of he will attempt to follow suit.
Other anchors past that are just "so and so" will be sad but i doubt that will last long. The longer this goes on the more i feel apathetic about these anchors. Wondering how you guys are grappling with your anchors.
My chosen method will be pretty messy. Nothing will be done within the household. I will find a park or the like, call first responders, then it's over. I will leave a note for the responders detailing who i am including my ID and to not let family see the mess. Hopefully it will be honored.
That brings me to my second anchor, which is really just a fear of messing up. I've chosen 12 gauge with hollow tip rifled slugs to maximize the chance of success.
The third anchor is my father who has been in prison since i was in single digits. I am his only son. While contact is limited he was diagnosed with schizophrenia and i start to wonder if he finds out his only son is gone of he will attempt to follow suit.
Other anchors past that are just "so and so" will be sad but i doubt that will last long. The longer this goes on the more i feel apathetic about these anchors. Wondering how you guys are grappling with your anchors.
