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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Update: failed again :(

Okay I'm going for N now I got all the way to SN drink it and then panicked called an ambulance and got released this morning. Looks like I need alcohol and other drugs and to take N as SN isn't for me
 
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Journeytoletgo said:
Update: failed again :(

Okay I'm going for N now I got all the way to SN drink it and then panicked called an ambulance and got released this morning. Looks like I need alcohol and other drugs and to take N as SN isn't for me
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Sorry it didn't go how you hoped. ❤ Was the anxiety bad or was it painful...?
 
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Journeytoletgo

Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Yagami said:
Sorry it didn't go how you hoped. ❤ Was the anxiety bad or was it painful...?
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The pain and anxiety/fear was immense so I'm going for N. SN scares me I keep failing that was my 3rd attempt
 
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I was once a pretty angel
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Journeytoletgo said:
Update: failed again :(

Okay I'm going for N now I got all the way to SN drink it and then panicked called an ambulance and got released this morning. Looks like I need alcohol and other drugs and to take N as SN isn't for me
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You already drank SN? Were you conscious all the time from the call to the hospital? How was the experience, were you nervous or somewhat calm till the point where you panicked?
 
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Journeytoletgo

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May 14, 2018
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Al_stargate said:
You already drank SN? Were you conscious all the time from the call to the hospital? How was the experience, were you nervous or somewhat calm till the point where you panicked?
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Yes I took Advil, meto, Tagamet, then SN. As soon as I took it I called 911 after 5 minutes, my breathing begun very heavily and I collapsed on the bed laying there thinking I'm really about to leave. I was so anxious and scared from them on I was in and out of consciousness. Pain level for me 4/10
 
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Journeytoletgo said:
Yes I took Advil, meto, Tagamet, then SN. As soon as I took it I called 911 after 5 minutes, my breathing begun very heavily and I collapsed on the bed laying there thinking I'm really about to leave. I was so anxious and scared from them on I was in and out of consciousness. Pain level for me 4/10
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Just wondering, since this is probably my method- what was the pain exactly- headache, stomachache, or something else? This would help. Thanks.
 
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Journeytoletgo said:
Yes I took Advil, meto, Tagamet, then SN. As soon as I took it I called 911 after 5 minutes, my breathing begun very heavily and I collapsed on the bed laying there thinking I'm really about to leave. I was so anxious and scared from them on I was in and out of consciousness. Pain level for me 4/10
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I've read that there wasn't that much pain with SN, only a headache. What was pain like?
 
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Broken and hated 7-14 years long overdue
May 14, 2018
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Someone123 said:
Just wondering, since this is probably my method- what was the pain exactly- headache, stomachache, or something else? This would help. Thanks.
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The pain was nauseating for me, and slight headache, heart racing tarchycardia for me. Pain level 4/10 for me
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I've read that there wasn't that much pain with SN, only a headache. What was pain like?
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The pain was nauseating for me, and slight headache, heart racing tarchycardia for me. Pain level 4/10 for me
 
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SN isn't the best, but for it's price and (previous) accessibility it's good enough for me. Thank you for your descriptions ❤
 
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May 14, 2018
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Yagami said:
SN isn't the best, but for it's price and (previous) accessibility it's good enough for me. Thank you for your descriptions ❤
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You're welcome I wish you peace
 
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Journeytoletgo said:
Update: failed again :(

Okay I'm going for N now I got all the way to SN drink it and then panicked called an ambulance and got released this morning. Looks like I need alcohol and other drugs and to take N as SN isn't for me
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Wish you are recovering well, take care @Journeytoletgo
 
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Did you tell the ambulance people about what you ingested?
 
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You're welcome I wish you peace
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Hi Journeytoletgo,

So sorry to hear what you are going through right now. I wish you much peace in whatever happens.

If you don't mind, can you tell me, was there any feeling of suffocation when you took the SN? The other symptoms don't really scare me, but feeling suffocated does. Or were you breathing hard because of the fear and fast heartbeat?

Thanks. This is my method and I'm scared to death of it.

Hope you manage to get your hands on N. I thought I had N coming to me, but it didn't work out, so SN it is for me, and I'm scared.
 
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