Venting bone breaking as sh

[Decayed]

i feel like shit and i can't afford supplies to ctb so im just going to jump off my balcony and pray i break my leg or something idk i just feel like shit

 

[MyShadow]

I really don't recommend this because you will have two problems.

 

[58Alice85]

i feel like shit too, sometimes i hear voices. i wish i was dead

 

[DoublingDown]

I think it depends how much you like hospital food. Depending on the level of break, you'd potentially need surgery, then you're looking at a painful recovery, physical therapy pushed on you. Potentially requiring a wheelchair which depending on how accessible where you live is could be frustrating to downright impossible. Not to mention if they knew it was an attempt/SH then you're looking at a psych stay. It's kind of like intentionally crashing your car, it just makes more problems that further your suffering.

I'm sorry you feel like shit. I can understand wanting to be in pain/hurt yourself. For me, some of it comes from wanting others to care. I want people to worry me, it helps me feel like I matter. I also enjoy doctors/hospitals so going is always enjoyable to me regardless of the reason but I know that part isn't common. I hope you get some reprieve from how you're feeling soon.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Risking lifelong disability isn't worth it.

 

[avalokitesvara]

Imagine your future self feeling even more like shit because they're in pain from a potentially life-long problem on top of knowing it was self-inflicted and totally avoidable. Don't do that to them.

It's cliche advice but try doing something physical that wears you out as much as possible, like running as fast and far as you can. It might fulfill a bit of the urge you're having to do something really drastic to yourself.