I live alone so that is why I feel lonely. I take my vitamins-honestly, maybe except vit B, I appreciate your answer. I tried hotel, but I cannot do It in hotel, It is too alienating.
Idk man, I always feel better in the forest - problem is It really was hard for me to find right branch in the right spot. But I think I will just use any thick branch at any height because I will use rock to throw smaller rope over that branch, and then use this to take bigger rope over this branch and then use slipknot to secure It onto a tree. But house would be good place too, tho I have no place to do full suspension in my house. Dying like a fox sounds good to me
My mind I think is just malfunctioning, not making enough dopamine or serotonin, It used to be better but I got depressed and was given many types of medications and ditched all of them because they were fucking with me so hard. The problem is I am hsp and have asperger's - so I feel emotions differently then others. Also rapid mood swings and just reaching depths of hell in span of hours and going back to normal is somewhat suicide fuel.
I would love to talk about why life is shit, but I do not know what to do about It other then to ctb. There are people who live different life and they do not feel the same way. Idk what could i do to make my life worth It. I wish that It could be understood by people that man can just want to die.
Thank you... I have so much to share...
Can you go live with family, get a roomate? A pet? Plant? I used to leave tv always open as an illusion of companion. Get into hobbies? Like board game clubs? There are groups for people with mental health to do activities? I'm too sick & scared & hurt to go out. Sit in parks with people?
Multivitamins don't work. Some people gave problems with absorbtion, need more from stress, had deficiencies for too long & need to catch up... The most importants are viramin c, b, magnesium... They cause agony physical & mental.
Maybe if you tie it to a branch, then pass the rope abive a higher branch, they would share part of your weight to be more solid? I thought if using the toilet & curtain pole.
You own a big house all to yourself? Rent rooms? Some people here are homeless...
The psychiatric talk isn't based on science wirh tests & proofs. It's just marketting.
Serotonin in made in the guy with magnesium. So the brain defect theory is nonsense. It's nutritional
I have reactive hypoglycemia. If I eat sugar I can get a manic high then a deoressed crash. It makes me suicidal. It's not my brain, or personality. Blood sugar from unnatural processed food.
Good job ditching the poison pills
The world is made by extroverts for extroverts. Aspergers Are far away on the other spectrum... Introverts. Autistic people are probably brain damaged from accidents, toxins,
Or lack of b vitamins to renew nerves in the brain. When I git hit by a car I felt autistic... Stuttering... Unable to bear noises & lights... Even more than usual. We have a hyper sensitive nervous system. We are more intelligent but need more nutrition (like body builders need proteins... but vitamin b for the brain) otherwise we burn out. We need to rest a lit too. And get overstimulated by loud environment that extrovert crave. It's not a defect just a different skill & down side.
HSP is basically higher IQ from hyper sensitive nerves. But when you don't eat enough b vitamins, the protective skin on nerves wastes away. Imagine living life without skin. Agony.
Yup, you sound like having reactive hypoglycemia. Look up the symptoms, it's hell. There is a test for that. Unlike psychiatric bullying nonsense.
Look into the effects of nutritional deficiencies. C, b, magnesium... There is extreme mental & physical agony & exhaustion. Loneliness & the urge to die is magnesium.
This is the reason I'm not crying hysterically right now.
The food supply is artificial poison. Drugs are chemical lobotomies.
You're different. A good leader would use your strengths instead to reproach your differences and downsides if your rare gift.
We need to be comforted more... Because we feel more. In a society if psychopaths & bureaucrats. You are a treasure.
The world doesn't deserve you. I understand if you want to go. But you're not defective. You just need more cares. And society doesn't have your sensitive intelligence... I'm too tired to do srlf care anymore. I ate cookies a few minutes ago.
But if you want to try something new, something that usn't invaludating who you are ... I hope that I opened some doors.
I kinda hope that you'll flee this world. But do it feeling pride in the gifts that were cruelly stigmatized instead of nurtured.
What society did to us is an abomination.
I think you're a wonderful person *hugs you* I'm so sorry that they shamed you instead to help you. They did it to me too. As if feeling so much wasn't hard enough... They stabbed us in the heart.
Dying among trees... Instead of living among humans... It's poetic.
