Happiness of others

[lostinthecha0s]

One of the things I struggle the most with in my thoughts is the knowledge that my CTB would bring so much sadness in my life. I have a family and support system that genuinely cares for me but I've reached a point mentally where I'm exhausted with living and don't want to wake up in the morning and the only thing keeping me from pursing more than ideation is knowing the devastation my end would be for them

I didn't ask to be born, now why am I expected to deal with my feelings in addition to everyone else's.

 

[Gild-Holm-’Ur]

Yeah, it's commendable to care for the people that care for you. And it is true that it will hurt them.

 

[delinquentsandwich]

yup, living for the sake of others is a hell
putting off your own peace and sanity just so others don't have to grieve or deal with your loss is an awful feeling

been living like this for years and now I've grown tired of it all

 

[ElfQueens]

commendable

We misread that as "condemnable" at first - Lira