body dysmorphic disorder has ruined my life

[wildflowers1996]

I isolate myself completely because of it so I have no one who cares about me other than my mum
I am so unbearably lonely
I got cosmetic surgery 3x and I'm still unhappy. The last procedure felt like my last hope and as expected it didn't turn out how I wanted. I don't think I can put myself through it again. "Treatment" only makes me feel worse. I'm so lonely I could scream

 

[MiMif]

Sorry your going through that. I experience something similar though I doubt it's as strong and difficult as what your feeling. Something that helps me is by simply looking in the mirror before leaving my house and staring at myself until I think I'm beautiful. This can either take a second or 10 minutes in my case.

If you don't think your beautiful change your outfit...put on makeup. Smile do some poses in the mirror and put on some music.


Again for me it's a problem that doesn't happen as often anymore so it's probably not as big as an issue as yours but that's what helps.

I also sometimes as I dress up put myself in like a third person point of view and act like I'm doing a grwm video. It is cringe yes but it helps.

 

[rozeske]

I am so sorry. Body dysmorphia is mostly related to mentality. it's understandable that it's not as easy as dressing nice and putting on makeup and feeling better. It runs much deeper. I wish those treatments worked better for you as you would have a much better chance with them than having procedures done. Procedures are usually a hit or miss, mostly on the miss side. BDD is not an easy thing to go through. I hope you can soon find a way to atleast cope through.