Venting birthdays

[Vesiira]

birthdays for the past few years haven't been enjoyable. i always dread them coming for some reason. it's the only day i even feel an ounce of "special," but the thought that it'll all go back to "normal" the day after hurts. anyone else get this way? i don't know how im seeing another birthday, but here i am. still here!

 

[Lady_V]

Do you still celebrate them?
I haven't celebrated my birthday in 12 years.

 

[Olivie_420]

birthdays for the past few years haven't been enjoyable. i always dread them coming for some reason. it's the only day i even feel an ounce of "special," but the thought that it'll all go back to "normal" the day after hurts. anyone else get this way? i don't know how im seeing another birthday, but here i am. still here!

Honestly, i felt the same about my past few birthdays. In april, i tried to do something special for my 19th and long story short, i was stranded in another city alone (after originally inviting 15 ppl, only 7 coming) at night. No pictures. Completely ignored at my own party. I do not think ill be celebrating mkne again at all, but congrats on another year of being alive. If no ones proud of u or wants to celebrate, i will <3

Taking a bong rip for u bro, pls take care

 

[F@#$]

Do you still celebrate them?
I haven't celebrated my birthday in 12 years.

I haven't either. I try to keep it hidden, don't deserve or want the attention.

 

[EternalHunger]

I never had a birthday to celebrate so I never really hold much attachment towards it besides keeping track of my age, don't think I deserve that sort of attention anyways; despite that I do get what you mean, if there was a day the people around me genuinely seemed to care for me, I would also hate that being stripped away immediately...

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I hate my birthday. I'm 56 years old. I want them to stop!

 

[nool]

My family drags me out to have dinner at a "fancy" restaurant (think Olive Garden fancy, lol) but if I could, I wouldn't celebrate it at all. I don't want to celebrate the day I was forced into existing, but I don't care enough to try and refuse. If all I have to do is sit through a single annoying dinner once a year, then yay, free food I guess.

 

[unluckysadness]

I hate birthdays. I had mine 7 days ago and I wish this day doesn't exist. I didn't want to see people but my parents came for an hour. I was very tired as always because of benzos. And it stresses me because I must answer to messages and calls. And when you hate your life, how can you "celebrate" the day you came into hell ? Yesterday a neighbour had his birthday and they put the music so loud from afternoon to midnight. My God, I just wanted to die when I heard them partying. And me, alone in my apartment. So pathetic. I need to go. I hope it will be in 2025 because I hate new year celebration too. I hate parties, I just want silence or relaxing music. Just leave me alone in peace, that's just what I want. I'm so tired with all this circus called life.

 

[Vesiira]

Do you still celebrate them?
I haven't celebrated my birthday in 12 years.

Yeah I do, since others want to. I always feel like they're obligated to do so though. I act like I enjoy it more than actually enjoying it nowadays.

Honestly, i felt the same about my past few birthdays. In april, i tried to do something special for my 19th and long story short, i was stranded in another city alone (after originally inviting 15 ppl, only 7 coming) at night. No pictures. Completely ignored at my own party. I do not think ill be celebrating mkne again at all, but congrats on another year of being alive. If no ones proud of u or wants to celebrate, i will <3

Taking a bong rip for u bro, pls take care

I'm so sorry that they did that to you, that's so unfair. I went out to dinner with my boyfriend and his grandparents, but it still felt off. Making another year is an accomplishment! I'm proud of you too, friend. I got hella stoned though, so thanks for the bong rip!!! <3

I haven't either. I try to keep it hidden, don't deserve or want the attention.

I don't blame you. Something about the attention you feel you don't deserve makes it so much harder.

 

[westerly_merlin]

I hate my birthday and have swerved it when I could. Being alone is the perfect day for me.

I got wind my family was planning a surprise party for my 40th so immediately announced I would treat myself with a holiday by myself. They never tried that again

 

[Vesiira]

I never had a birthday to celebrate so I never really hold much attachment towards it besides keeping track of my age, don't think I deserve that sort of attention anyways; despite that I do get what you mean, if there was a day the people around me genuinely seemed to care for me, I would also hate that being stripped away immediately...

I really don't hold much attachment to it anymore either. You think we would want the attention, but it's the complete opposite. Just makes me feel so anxious. The whole day I think how when it's over I'll be going back to feeling the same way about myself again.

My family drags me out to have dinner at a "fancy" restaurant (think Olive Garden fancy, lol) but if I could, I wouldn't celebrate it at all. I don't want to celebrate the day I was forced into existing, but I don't care enough to try and refuse. If all I have to do is sit through a single annoying dinner once a year, then yay, free food I guess.

I hate celebrating it. Not a very exciting day at all. The free food is a plus!

I hate birthdays. I had mine 7 days ago and I wish this day doesn't exist. I didn't want to see people but my parents came for an hour. I was very tired as always because of benzos. And it stresses me because I must answer to messages and calls. And when you hate your life, how can you "celebrate" the day you came into hell ? Yesterday a neighbour had his birthday and they put the music so loud from afternoon to midnight. My God, I just wanted to die when I heard them partying. And me, alone in my apartment. So pathetic. I need to go. I hope it will be in 2025 because I hate new year celebration too. I hate parties, I just want silence or relaxing music. Just leave me alone in peace, that's just what I want. I'm so tired with all this circus called life.

Totally understand how you feel. Sorry to hear about your neighbors. Silence is the thing I want most recently as well. Everything feels so loud and overwhelming all the time. Peace shouldn't be too much to ask for! But, I guess it is for us!